When Leech Meets Drama

Random musings

2011-11-23T02:55:00.003+08:00

It's 3am in the morning..

Just came back from an outing with the usual gang in KK. A new group of friends I became closer within 10 months or so.

And it hit me that as much as I enjoy the companionship, sometimes I cant help feeling sad that my friends feed on others negativity to keep the conversation going. It may be funny if you're not THE joke but it's hurtful when you're the said topic.

And Im sure if I voiced it out.. I'll be seen as childish but.. you see, everyone's needs are different. I cant compromise my happiness for your entertainment. Hence, most of the time, I'll try to control what I said, and just laugh.. I'll try my best not to laugh at others misery cos I know exactly how it feels..

Hmm.. it's different from my usual friends from high school or college friends which I hangout with, in the sense, random topics, ideas or nonsense are things we chat about and joke non stop. No direct personal jokes on a particular person, and I remember leaving, feeling uplifted and encourage that I have a group of friends who appreciate me for who I am and where I can really get support.

I guess everyone is different and I just need to learn to adapt to the situation.

What's saddening is, it limits what I wanna say, share or joke about..

I know I can trust them when it come to certain situations and I know we must have shared some common sentiments to become a group ... but feelings like this is not something I wanna feel all the time.. sigh.

Human is such a peculiar creature...

Blessings

2011-10-12T01:03:00.003+08:00

Sometimes when I see patients who are 50 and above in Surgery wards... some with carcinoma aging them tremendously, sucking their health away...

....... I cant help being so thankful to God that my parents and grandparents are so youthful and healthy despite their age!... ((:

Although I might not profess it to them (cos I am cool like that), the thoughts are always there in my mind. ;D

xxx

Gratitude.

2011-10-10T00:03:00.003+08:00

10 things I love today:-

Out-of-the-blue praises by people. They dont know how it made my day. And I'm just gonna do that to others. ;)
Cup of dark mocha at my favourite Starbucks. The smell of freshly brew coffee, comfy sofa and huge glass panel windows are comfort to the soul.
The perfect fit dresses for the big bone, big sized me. 4 brand new dresses waiting for the right occasions. LOL
Friends who made me laughed my heads off including hanging out with the bestie.
Fulfilling afternoon sleep. The kind of slumber land sleep that feels forever and when Im awake it's only 2 hours, feeling fresh.
Dressing up. Not for anyone but myself.
Sign up for volunteering work today. SPCA KK
Day off.
Proper conversation with the parents. Not just "umm", "yahhs", "okk" ..
Being alive. *inhale, exhale*

not perfect but will do!

Dear, me.

2011-09-06T22:44:00.004+08:00

Twice, tears were shed for the same reason.

It has been a long time since I last cried.. that particular morning, I cried when I saw the FB status.. I cried on the way to work.. I cried on the phone, talking and seeking advice from my confidante... at work *gasp*

Who would have know that at the age of 24, I would actually cried for a friendship issue?!

I assured myself countless times that I am important and irreplaceable.. but the reality is.. nothing lasts forever.. The truth is I am hurt that I AM replaceable.

Ms. Confidante told me to give space and time since everyone will go thorough this phase of meeting new friends, finding new excitement and better friends.

It makes full sense and I totally accept the fact, cos if I'm in the opposite shoes, I would probably act the same.

What hurts though is being treated invisible and being left tailing behind..

If it's meant for me to be alone, then so be it. Alone is not a bad thing. At least I am the centre of my own world, not the back up person. It's just hard to accept. I am big enough to adapt.

Foolish me had been so dependent on a single person, that I forget to think way beyond the "what-ifs".

And here comes the wake up call.. it may not be obvious but it's there.. the in-betweens.

Foolish me trying so hard to make things work but it doesn't fall to place.

A BIGGER foolish me to be so bitter when my friend is probably at the happiest period and I should be glad and unselfish.

Foolish me wish from the bottom of my heart, the best in life for my friend..who has been the dearest to me, totally irreplaceable.

Foolish me just wanna find a place to release this sorrow and I believe my happiness is somewhere out there..

Hence, the second time of shedding tears.

The tears of realization of what have become of us.

Life is a constant learning process and I am learning now to take things slowly..

We do need space for personal development and be seen as an individual eventually :D

Hello, from land below the wind!

2011-02-14T21:44:00.003+08:00

From Sunset Point, Manukan Island!

A little adventure regardless of place and time.

A little escapade from work.

A place I would love lie in the hammock, laze the entire afternoon with a Starbuck's Grande Dark Mocha, an aviator and adequate sun block!

Panic attack!

2010-12-03T03:38:00.005+08:00

'Twas the last month of the year.
I'm used to looking forward to this month every year cos it only means birthday, christmas and new year celebrations! but this year, it's different.
Cos, I dont know where will I be at that time.

I need to straighten my life ~~now~~ soon.
Suddenly it dawned upon me that my future is really empty..
Current plan would be work as a HO.. and then? Goshh~
People who have plans to be a specialist are so dedicated and devoted their time into studying and working. They have vision and I dont~ And it scares me.
I'm afraid I dont have what it takes.
I'm afraid of the future.
Crazy I know, cos the future is so general but when I was in medical school, all I aim was to passed. And now when I do, I'm lost.

Straigthen my life means:-

reorganise my stuff
stop procrastinating
have planning, utitilise time to the max
build up the stamina
keep my eyes and mind open
continuous reading. not necessary books but current journals and such

And mostly spend more time with the family cos I know there aint any when work beckons.

Plus, I also need to learn that people lead his/her own life and there's no point imitating theirs. One can only wish them luck. My life is my own, I need to decide fast and I guess, leave the rest to God when Im lost.. Not at this junture but soon! S-O-O-N!

Byebye Malacca

2010-10-02T12:11:00.006+08:00

Leaving Malacca in a few hours time, a place I grew to love, just like Manipal.

I am glad that MMMC's campus is in Malacca, with Melaka GH and Muar Hospital as our training ground, which might not be the best teaching hospital but the patients and hospital staffs *who can be pain-in-the-ass-at-times* are very accommodating, especially when it's nearing exams. I seriously can't picture myself being woken up by medical students for interrogation and examination, repeat 50X. Haha. And the campus is near to home with wee-bit of entertainment around to fill-up time (exploring Malacca for good food and nice ambience to chillout), not forgetting the lecturers, some who are more dedicated than others *opps* but all deserve their due respects.

*editted: What i do NOT miss bout Malacca is the slow-poke brainless Malaccan no. plate drivers. Not all but majority! They have the ability to make, even the holiest nun to burst in anger and probably the main cause attributing to road rage statistics! *

Malacca is albeit different from Manipal.

Here, I realised quanlity rules over quantity. It's not the amount of friends that matters but the friends who sticks around for better or worse, which is suffice. It is during this 5 years in medical course that shaped my early adulthood. I learned that it's impossible to please everybody *I admit that I was a people-pleaser in Manipal, just because I thought having more friends is better than having enemies* but it comes to a certain point in my life that I think I should put myself first once in awhile and make my stand. Sometimes, we can be friends because we overlook a certain things, adding tolerance and acceptance but of course, FATE plays an important part and other times, friends fall out due to clashing of personalities, misunderstanding or just because ;) In this point of my life, I know who are my true friends who I should put effort to stay in touch and I know they'll do the same :)

Some wonderful memories with wonderful peeps.

Saying goodbye to Malacca it's like saying bye to medical student's life (all studying, playing and spending money) and a reluctant HI to working life (bills to pay, responsibilities to carry and further studies to pursue) :( Oh well, I guess this is life!

P.S: Planning for Europe trip is a bitch.
Flights, trains, ~~hotels~~ hostels argghh *pulls hair* but luckily, there's Leeky to be the ideal travel partner. *fingers cross for a fun adventure*
Couldnt think of anyone else to do this with :D

Alternate resume

2010-09-23T15:08:00.005+08:00

Was in Starbucks, trying to do our resume for SPA interview and this is what LIM LEEK MEI wrote while I'm not looking at her..

BIODATA
Nama: AMANDA LAI LEE CHEN
I/C : 861221-43-5708
ADDRESS : KLANG
NATIONALITY : CHINA
OCCUPATION: INDONESION MAID
RACE : UNKNOWN
HOBBIES : BEING RACIST
FAVORITE FOOD : PORK, EGGS..PS : MUST B FRIED OR HALF BOILED..NOT ANYTHIN ELSE!!
FAVORITE UNDERWEAR : G-STRING

*smacks forehead.. hers though* ahahahha

A student's prayer

2010-09-21T22:36:00.003+08:00

Dear Lord,

Please let tomorrow be my last battle as a medical student.
Let the senses be extra sensitive and alert, picking up all the right findings and let it click with my brain to produce the right diagnosis.
Heavenly Father, we've all (my batch mates and I) worked hard for this final exam, so let Your blessings rain on us during our short cases tomorrow and help us do well. Thank you Lord.

In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Hope

2010-08-12T23:26:00.005+08:00

I am sensitive like that.
Some entries brought me to tears. T.T
Taught me to be patient, to appreciate the people I have around me especially family and friends (shoutout to especially one: where can you find a friend who is willing to peel grapes and apples so that I'll have all the vitamins I need, knows what food I dislike and particularly like and cheer me on like no one had before AND save me from ultimate boredom with her countless lameness, selfless is a the only word i can think of, plus constantly nagging at me so that I'll drink water *insert motherly mode*AND the ultimate gesture will only be revealed on her wedding, list could go on but then it'll be too lesbo! hahhaha to LEEKY LIM) and most of all, to trust God.

Despite the fact that the speaker who gave a talk today on "How to start as a houseofficer ~~or *scratch head* something like that~~?", gave a glimpse of harsh reality awaiting the new houseofficers and me being discouraged a bit on how we have to manipulate our true feelings just to survive the everyday life, to the point that you tend to suspect whether it's the person's sincere feelings/intentions or a facade! because I've been despising those people all along (buttering their way up, butting into everyone's business, the I-am-the-know-it-all-its'allaboutme/me/me kind of people) and constantly reminding myself that I'll never be like them BUT I guess a little bit of optimism, loads of close-one-eye and AVOIDANCE are what encourages life on.
So, instead of seeing it as "buttering/bootlicking" I can take it as purely praising out of a sincere heart and the act of "butting into everyone's business" as purely concern or "I-am-the-know-it-all-important-person" as lack of attention/ ~~deluded~~? HAHAHAHHA *vomits blood from trying too hard to accept*
I do get the point of weighing the pro and cons in everything one does *an achievement I can be proud of for able to fliter many things ought not to be mention* plus change when necesaary to adapt to the circumstances.

On another note, while doing a respiratory examination on a Swedish man of approx. 70 years old today, I asked him to say "Ninety-nine" and in repetition. He cheekily alternates "99" with "Eleven-eleven" and when we (Leeky and Olive) wanted to do percussion, in lay man's term, we told him we'll "knock" his chest a bit. With his thick accent and rusty voice, it took us quite sometime to understand that he was trying to say, "Open the door and come in" (KNOCK KNOCK, COME IN? geddit?) *insert awkward smile followed by laughter*

Back to the topic at hand!
If you have time to spare or feeling despair (hak hak) or simply wanna go, "AAwwwwwww", feel free to run through some of it (:

LoveGivesMeHope
GivesMeHope

Few of my favourites:

No. 1
I thought I was pregnant, and I was scared to death.
We’ve only been together for a year and I didn’t know if we were ready to have a baby and how you really felt about me and our future.
My doubts, and fears, disappeared when you kissed my belly and whispered ” If you’re in there. I love you.”
JW, your loving heart GMH. I love you.

No. 2
Last December, my mom committed suicide after a lifelong struggle with depression.
Yesterday, I found a picture of my mom holding me when I was a baby, her forehead touching mine, eyes closed, smiling in complete bliss. On the back she wrote “I love you always -Mommy.”
Mama, your never-ending love GMH.

No. 3
I am a third grade teacher.
Most kids come in with notes or messages written by their mothers in their lunch sacks.
One little girl's dad left, and her mother abuses drugs. But her 12 year old brother never fails to write "I love you" on her brown paper bag.
He GMH.

No. 4 (Medical Related!)
A 74 year old man has an rare antibody in his plasma that stops babies dying from Rhesus disease, a form of severe anaemia. He has donated plasma almost 1000 times since he was 18 years old. He has saved an estimated 2.2 million babies so far.
James Harrison, you GMH.

No. 5
My girlfriend and I were in the drive thru of a restaurant when we saw a homeless man begging for food.
As soon as we got our food she asked me to pull over and she gave the homeless man her meal.
When I asked her why she did that she simply said, " I can go home and eat a sandwich, he can't."
Her compassion for others GMH

*Wipe tears and mucus*
Leave you guys to that. Nites.
Feeling a fever creeping in. Counter attacked with PCM :(

Study break

2010-08-10T22:20:00.004+08:00

"Near" daily study break routine:-

6.30-9.30 am : Waking up time consist of rolling on bed, snuggle warmly, procrastinate kao kao and cheat oneself of the multiples "extra 5 minutes". AlarmS are set at 6.30am, 7.30am, 8.30 am and manual call from Leeky. I should really learn to set only ONE alarm and wake up to it instead of snoozing all the time. This is what I call, fat hopes! And the thing is, my handphone requires me to slide across the screen to snooze or off the alarm which means I am always aware of what I'm doing =__="

9.30-10.00 am: Get ready. Requires me to bathe, blow dry the messy lion mane and select appropriate library attire. Haha. Eyeliner requires only less than 5 minutes for both eyes :D

10.00-10.30/11am: Breakfast. There's no other way to start the day than a good breakfast. Sadly, beggars cant choose during exam period. So, cafetaria food is sufficient. Once awhile McD's breakfast taste like heaven~

11.00-11.30am: Settling down in the library. An important transition period from "just arrived" to "productive studying". The period varies every single day.

11.30am-1.30pm: Actual study period. It includes small chats, short coffee breaks, toilet breaks and nap time (i sleep alot, i know T.T)

1.30pm-2.30pm: Lunch time. Includes travelling time :) A hungry stomach makes the loudest noise (revised idiom from an empty vessel make the loudest noise) HAHA. A short escape from the library too. This period also depends on the location of the restaurant. Important lesson learned: Lunch at shopping complex is a big no-no. Window shopping plus strolling render one unable to gauge the time properly. But still we do it (: Air cond is also a criteria cos we dont wanna be studying with a stench later on.

2.30pm -3.00pm: Another transition period. Includes freshen up, toilet break and meditating *just joking*

3.00pm-6.00pm: Study period. Nap time is fit into where deemed needed. It's an evil act where one cannot control the sleepiness and words or sentences look jibberish! No amount of coffee can make the eyelids stay wide open.

6.00pm-8.00pm: Back in room to have a little me-me time. Serve the net, bathe then dinner.

8.00pm-12pm: I guess at night is the most productive hours. Another uncontrollable nap time creeps in somewhere along the period (My gosh. I, myself feels like a baby who requires frequent naps)

12pm-1am: Back in room. Serve the net. Sleep. To think that the amount of sleep or coffee I have, insomnia is not in my dictionary at all.

Cycles repeat in the morning. Arggh. Now that I have it written out, I seriously need to revise my timetable! Maybe I should cut down on the transition period time... hmmm

Smokers, sheesh!

2010-07-21T01:44:00.003+08:00

Watched a movie today.
Inception is one mind-boggling piece of art. I have so many questions but who will answer them?

Anyways, the movie is not the agenda today.
Jeremy and Leeky were seated to my left in the cinema. On my right, were a bunch of people who came 10 mins late, went out 2 to 3 times during the movie despite knowing or oblivious to the fact that every single detail is so important and coming back to the cinema smelling like cigarette smoke.

Nevertheless, the movie finished. I went to the bathroom while Leeks and Jeremy waited for me. While catching the lift down, there was a group of people standing behind us. I thought I smelled smoke which reminded me of the idiot who sat beside me in the cinema.

Me: The guy beside me in the cinema went out and came back smelling like cigarette smoke.
Leeky: Yeah! The smell was so strong. Only 2 hours long movie also cannot stand the temptation.
Me: So desperate!

This followed by giggles coming from 2 or 3 girls standing behind us, in the lift. I just kept quiet sensing something is wrong or else, my tirade of rants will probably continue.

As soon as we exit from the lift, the girls were laughing at their guy friends and we were figuring out what just happened.

Apparently, Leeky saw smoke coming out from the guy who was standing at behind me. He was trying so hard to withold the smoke in him while I was busy bitching bout the other guy. They were whispering in Mandarin whilst our conversation was in English. So, I guess they thought we wouldnt understand what they say somehow.

Sorry la brader. Didn't you know it's also common sense or plain courtesy not to smoke in the lift?
I wasnt talking bout you but since you felt it too, I say, very goood! Even if in my slightest imagination it is really the guy who sat beside me in the cinema, my whole purpose is for him to know what I have in mind. Piece of junkie!

I have nothing against smokers but please be sensitive to others cos we prefer NOT smellling like we just came out of a sauna filled with cigarette smoke and worse part is the smell lingers in the hair, clothes!

My love for football!

2010-07-12T22:54:00.009+08:00

For the last 1 month, the amount of football lovers had raised tremendously. Football crazed fans had their eyes glued to the tv, sacrificing their sleep and endured palpitations, just to support their team or waiting to catch a nice match (fingers crossed, hope it's worth the wait), strategically played with good goals or maybe at least, some on-pitch dramas.

I remembered watching 1998 World Cup at the age 0f 12 years old because I stayed up for the finals between Brazil and France, just to bragged to the other kids at school. Hehe. I dont remember much bout the games but I know I was a Brazil supporter cos Ronaldo was playing and I "liked" the colour yellow? LOL! * My favourite colour now is blue, hence Italy as the second choice? *
Those were the days when my friends and I spent countless 50 cents on the "tikam-tikam" machine in a grocery shop in front of my school, to collect different World Cup teams card and exchange among ourselves if we have similar ones, to complete a scrap book! Oh boy, the amount of African countries cards we collected were depressing. Now thinking back, I believe the company producing such machine had successfully conned us students. *angry! 50 cents can buy one kerepok lekor k!*
The 1998 Word Cup also successfully stuck in my mind due to the now-deemed-cheesy-but-most-succesful-world-cup-song, "The Cup of Life" by Ricky Martin! Here we go, ale ale ale, Go-go-go, ale ale ale? *subconsciously, all of us KNOW the LYRICS to this song, dont pretend k!* and was it this WC that Senegal dude, Diouf did the funny dance after scoring goals? Something like harvesting paddy fields... hmm..

Then, World Cup 2002 came. This time, I supported Japan! At the age of 16, it was the era of Japanese animation, Gensomaden Saiyuki, being my number one anime alongside Ranma 1 1/2 and Samurai X. Hidetoshi Nakata and Junichi Inamoto (with his yellow hair) were so-damn-cute and there's someone wearing a Batman-like face mask from Japan team but I cant recall his name.
This is also the year where I have better memories of names and famous players were noted especially Totti & Buffon (Italy), Casillas & Raul Gonzales (Spain), Luis Figo (Portugal), entire Brazil team (The whole Joga Bonito thingy. Dad was raving and loves Brazil so much cos they really play to entertained with their tricks), Oliver Kahn, Klose & Ballack (Germany) and of course, Beckham (powerful penalty kick wei), Owen and Seaman with his ponytail (England).

Till 18 years old, I've being watching football only during the World Cup season caused of the hype and excitement but then, it all changed when my brother showed me a club worth learning the whole rules of football for.

Mine did not start now, it did not start for World Cup 2010 sake. World Cup was just a bonus to see all good players, playing together for the country they represent on one stage.

Having said that, admiring good looking players is not a bloody crime. Guys tend to have this misconception of girls. Please la. It's just like guys watching gymnastics. Dont give me the bullshit of admiring their tactics & rhythm, flow & costumes and looks are not important. In the end, the winner who gets the gold (and coincidently, happens to be pretty) is the ideal ending, right? Not to say I'm oblivious to other talented players around.

For country, first choice is always England.
Though I know they will not qualify for even semi-finals this year (urggh they crashed at quarters!), dont even mention bout lifting the cup, England is number one because without English Premier League, football is not even thaaaaaat famous. Yes, EPL is commercialised and other leagues like Bundesliga or Serie A have better quality/players and I dont claimed I know the other leagues better than EPL but Liverpool is my number 1!

Being a Liverpool supporter is an influenced from my brother, Nicholas, circa year 2004-2005. Everytime he watches Liverpool game, stayed up late like other true fans, I was the sceptical one, the one who "cucuk" him, telling him Liverpool sucks and hopped to bed happily, only to hear him screamed like a mad man when they scored and gloated endlessly in the morning. He'll even search for Liverpool jerseys (the red home ones) when it was out of stock in Malaysia (hot-stuff, so he says), in Singapore. There were ups and downs for the club but such was his passion that despite countless taunting from me and numerous noobies questions, I decided to watch a proper game with him.

And of all game I picked, it was the 2005 UEFA Champions League Final [Goals] [Documentary] By half time, I was teasing him endlessly when Liverpool was down 0-3 to Milan. I told him to packed up and sleep, for a final game how can they chased up etc and he calmy said, 'Just sit and watch" but I know he was afraid as hell in his heart. So I went to my room cos I thought that's the end of it and then I heard my bro screamed. He shouted, 'Liverpool scored!", followed by unidentifiable cheering noises. I ran out, in disbelief, sat and watch! Really amazed me how they picked up after half time, ending the game at 3-3 and it went on to penalty kick. IT WAS THE MOST KAN-CHEONG (anxious) GAME I'VE WATCHED.

It opened me to a whole new world. I would then watch games with my bro, laughing at how Riise likes to clean the ball before a throw in and Dudek's big nose, spotting Crouch's long limbs from afar, hearing Carragher's name all the time, seeing Hamann's and Hyppia's nerve-wrecking saves.. and having goose-bumps when the stadium echoes with Liverpool's fans singing the official song, "You'll Never Walk Alone". Man U might have their "Glory glory Man united" cheer.. but then what? it just cuts off there.. *potong steam* HAHAHA
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Alonso's 70 yards goal Off he went to Real Madrid (graveyard for famous footballers)
Torres's Song Notice how all the fans (grown ups) dancing to the "nah nah nah" part? haha so cute! *I might have twitch a biiitt*
FA Cup 2006 Again down 0-2 and chased back again to win the cup. Priceless.

Then there's also the time (I still dont get it) where my brother will watch other teams ie Man U/Chelsea/Arsenal play, to either hope they'll end up losing/draw or do not play with Liverpool.

I would also search on Liverpool, read up on the club's history and let me tell you, it'w worth a history book itself, worse being Hillsborough Disaster, where 96 Liverpool supporters perished in the stadium. An outcome of this incident led to new stadium regulations where no standing is allowed and seats were made compulsory in all stadiums. Dunno why trivia like this can stick in my head but medical-related studies just slips through?! :( Yes, they might be performing badly last season but Liverpool is still the most successful English Club [source]

Again, I dont claimed to be a die hard fan who knows all the tactical play/terms/theories or remember each and every game but I AM their fan. I do know who is Ian Rush, Kenny Daglish, the current US owners who suck balls and Liverpool's new manager is Roy Hodgson.

Have I successfully make you a supporter already? Hehe

So, it was fun spotting Liverpool's players in the World Cup now. 2006 World Cup, watched in India. The year where Materazzi head butted Zidane HAHAHAH, the year I started supporting Italy too due to Cannavaro! HAHAHA and they went on to win the WC. *shrugs* I still look out for Japan but had passed the "Look East" phase within 4 years. I know Germany was a strong team especially King Kahn. I love seeing Germany's game due to his saves and Klose's header. Somehow I remembered 2006 as the year of goalkeepers. Buffon, Casillas, Kahn, Der Sar. hmm. But nothing beats supporting England. Twas the year where England actually was strong (quarterfinal lost to Portugal 0-0, penalty kick 3-1) but I guess too many egostic players ruined the game.

The time came for 2010's World Cup. So much fun was spent finding nice places to catch the game. 3 Mamak stalls (consumed different maggi gorengs), one fine dining restaurant, 2 bars, common room at the girls' hostel (10 m from my room) and the best is still at home, watching it in HD *chuckles* College's gazebo projector was also not too shabby. Watched the opening match (Mexico vs SA) and also the last match there! So, my personal top 3 teams were England, Italy and Spain (for Torres /shy, eh Xabi Alonso was also there).

I even bought England's and Italy's jersey, to don it and support my teams. Argentina was a joke cos I had both white and blue jersey, so I can at least patch the jerseys together.

Vuvuzela is fun playing with (Chandan have 2 of them from South Africa) and productive in producing noisebut I guess it just feels different not hearing fans singing, chanting or cheering in unison for the country they support.

Spain lost 0-1 to Switzerland and Torres wasnt performing that well. An utter disappointment but who would have thought they improved so much within 1 month duration with up and rising striker, David Villa, leading Spain's ass till the finals and the rest is history. Their team spirit should be applauded with captain Casillas leading the pack. The final was every inch exciting and nerve-wrecking. Both teams (Netherlands) played so well. I guess luck plays a really important role in football. Who would have expect Casillas to extend his leg and saved the attempt by Holland? Even if it's not Spain playing, I guess it's only appropriate to send to WC off properly! hehe Sort of a closure!
Coming to Torres, he's still recovering, poor performance but nevertheless, it was HIM who scored the goal against Germany for Euro 2008 final k.

England crashed to Germany 4-1 but as a consolation, at least they managed to score 1 unlike Argentina who lost 4-0 and the second disallowed goal by Lampard was controversial. I read an article somewhere saying that the sad state of the current team was partly due to the influx of foreign players in EPL, damaging local British boys chances to play for the clubs, subsequently the country. I guess they can always pick up and look forward to UEFA 2012 qualification games starting in September.

Italy was another sad case. They were performing so badly, they were last in their group. As the previous world cup winner, they definitely disappointed a lot of people, me being one. Hopefully the new coach will revamped the whole team and prove their worth in Brazil, 2014. Too bad it would be Cannavaro's last world cup and and and, he's on free loan to UAE football league. So sadd. :(

Watching World Cup is not all about being selfish, boasting and cocky about one's team. Being proud of one's team is one's every right but "pride goeth before destruction, and a haugthy spirit before a fall". It's a place where you get to see good games being played, talented players showing their prowess and just being amazed at how the players performed. It doesnt mean that after one's team defeat, we should shut ourselves from the World Cup. There's always joy and excitement when taking one side in football. Disappointment aplenty but when you watch a good match, although the team you supported lose, at least you know the winning team deserves it or, they dont.

Germany is one of the strongest country around . They played with discipline, precision and their coordination was amazing. If they would have win over Spain in the semis, the cup was as good as theirs. Thomas Mueller deservingly won the Golden Boot and Best Young Player. Schwensteinger was everywhere in every game, would have thought that the commentator just loves calling his name. (: The 3rd&4th placing game was apparently the best game of the tournament. Didnt watch it but the highlights were WOW! Forlan really carries the weight of the country on his back. He made the goals from outside the penalty box look so easyyy. haha

And Holland, despite Wesley Sneijder's best effort as a playmaker, organiser, attacking and grafter or Arjen Robbens multiple attempts on goal, number 3 (3rd finals) is not a lucky number for them. Btw, they played very rough for the finals! Karate kick from De Jong on Xabi Alonso should be a big RED card. Dutch supporters are one of the most eye-catching ones. Hot babes in orange dresses. Yum!

Now that World Cup has ended, whilst some have to wait for four years to cheer for their beloved teams, in the mean time, I guess EPL's, UEFA, Champions league, FA cup, ~~Liga Malaysia~~ will make do.

Back to EPL in August/September (exam period but its' a whole yr thingy so not too late to catch up).

Hopefully in next 4 years, I would be able to earn enough money to catch the game in Brazil. Samba time anyone? Wheeee~

p.s: Second alternative is UK by end of this yr *fingers cross!*(:

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Brotherly love

2010-07-10T00:30:00.003+08:00

My youngest brother, Kenneth, sms-ed me just now, to kind of show-off..
Just the other day we were discussing bout the possibilities of having 3 CSIs' combined in one: Miami, New York and Las Vegas, oblivious to the fact that there IS such thing, called the CSI Trilogy *whheeee, mad excitement!*, which I subsequently googled and read the synopsis. (: My favourite is still CSI Las Vegas but since Grisom left, my heart turned cold *geli max*

*below is the exact conversation we had*

Bro: 3 CSI team going to solve a case together.. woohoo
Me: Really? So nice! What show?
Bro: CSI Trilogy
Me: Yor. I wanna watch! Huhuhu
Bro: U got exams. aww
Me: Shut up biatch
Bro: I'll help you record in my brain
Me: If you have one... HAHAHAHAH
Bro: Zzz I hate you
Me: But but I lovve you Ken
Bro: ...

HAHAHAHA I know it's lame but I just find the conversation funny. hehe
Now, where can I get my hands on that 3 episodes?..

B4 exams fever

2010-06-13T12:07:00.004+08:00

Whoa. I seriously need to slow down.. my time is so jam packed with stuff not academically related!

Family came down on Friday, took them to dinner at Wok n Pan. Had one of the most hilarious dinner with Dad and bro as Mum had to attend a funeral. I dare say my dad has the driest sense of humour but he's darn funny. He still lingers at a certain topic and make jokes bout it when we had already moved on to 5 other topics or so.

Kenneth: Jie, Messi from where?
Me: I thought he was from Italy, so I bought Italy jersey *other than the fact that I think Italy has the strongest chance to win WC, with Spain and Argentina in line* BUTTT I now know he's from Argentina
Kenneth: *laughter fits* Noob. Please dont tell people you are my sister.

Then he continues,
Kenneth: Torres?
Me: OF COURSE I KNOW. Spain.
Kenneth: Ballack?
Me: Germany.

Was bored at this point. He thinks I am a noob is it? *flips hair*

Kenneth: Gerrard?
Me: CHINA -_-"
Kenneth and Dad ( who was quiet the whole time): *laughter fits*

Then,

Dad: He'll be known as Steven Gerrard Lee cos he's playing for China
Me: *choke on my pork burger* Er dad, although you change citizenship, you dont have to adopt chinese name wert!
Dad: But it will be funny. Imagine he visits the Hokkien province of China, people will call him, "LEE JIA-LAT" (jia-lat in hokkien means in trouble)

Me and bro laughed so loud, other diners were looking at us like we had nitrous oxide for dinner.

Me: In China, the surname "Lu" is quite common. He'll be known as "LU JIA-LAT" (literally means You're in trouble)

Somehow me and bro changed topic but dad still has ideas flowing in his mind.

Dad: If Steven Gerrard migrates to HongKong (predominantly Cantonese speaking), he'll be known as "Chan Gee-lard". Chan cos he follows Jackie Chan surname.

Me and bro nearly laughed our breakfast out, whatever my brekfast was cos I cant remember what I ate in the morning. I dunno la, the conversation was just so lame but his expressions are priceless.

Other funny things my dad will do is when we're out for shopping the whole day and havent had our dinner, he'll be pestering us to go home COS his dog is alone at home the entire day and is hungry. My mum will literally scream, "MY GOD. We humans also havent eat and you are worried bout your dog?" Coming from a guy who initially refuse to have a dog although he loves them cos of monetary and space-wise, now he's grown so fond of Richie, the dog is practically his youngest son or grandkid.

Anyways, after dinner, we went back to the hotel at Tengkera. Then I took his new car out to watch football. He insisted I test drive the car with him inside, around the hotel for one round. My gosh. Such is my dad when he has a new car. Super obsessive and compulsive, he'll double check and double lock his car but things will be fine once he scratched it or something.

So, waited for the first game since 8.30pm. Thought can catch the opening ceremony but RTM 1's presenter had to babble away. I dont think anyone in the country actualy listen to their opinion. Urrggh. Watched half of the first game.

Saturday morninng slide through with a short breakfast and small shopping for my new kebaya at the new jusco. Then, attended the graduation ceremony for batch15/16. Was rushing like mad, dahla petrol tank indicator was left with one bar, blinking incessantly. I die-die also refuse to pump petrol in my kebaya but have no choice. It'll be ultimate embarassment if my car ran out of petrol and I had to wait by the roadside for ANYONE to rescue me, under the hot scorching sun!

Then left early, had tea with the rest at Station One and went back to the room to change and again, leave to accompany the family for early dinner before they drive home.

Came back around 6pm, slept to 9.30pm, changed at 11.30pm and out I went again with Gayathri, Gurpreet and her 2 crazy friends. (:

*from 9.30pm to 11.30pm was spent talking nonsense with Leeky, in case you think I have amnesia or somethin*

Its' always nice to meet new people. Such refreshing feeling. Hehe.
I have to say Borneo or East Malaysia people are much nicer, funnier and friendlier people than West Malaysians especially their accent and their Bahasa. I dunno whether they'll be offended or not when I went, "Funny la your accent! Hak hak hak" and Davina (Gurp's fren) answered, "I thought I was speaking English wert!"

Made it in time to watch Green's blunder for England Vs USA match but missed Gerrard's goal at the mamak stall. Imagine 6 noisy, boisterous girls chatting non-stop on guys; their body, hair etc etc and I bet others were just waiting to kill us. hehe

Crazees!

2010-06-10T12:31:00.003+08:00

Another random stopover to unwind a hectic week, though it was only midweek. LOL
Yeah. Had a round of cocktails, bought Heineken, fend off friendly guys who bought us a bucket of Tiger beer (took one bottle only, but they came over to refilled it), another group who wanted to dance and an old uncle who refused to take NO for an answer despite refusing his offer for free drinks and join his group, THREE times.

It's quite safe cos there's bouncers and waiters checking our well-being every 10 mins or so. And we dont simply take free drinks unless it's open by the waiter in front of our eyes and of course to avoid the obligation to join them.

Guy A: You girls are not from around?
Us: No. From KL *put on thick English accent*
Guy B: Oh. Studying?
Us: Yeap. MMU.
Guy B: What's your names?
Us: Jun and Apple *chuckles*
Guys: You girls cant really speak Chinese?
Us: Nope. Minimal. Sorry guys. ~~We are lesbians~~ We just wanna have fun among ourselves.
Guys: *kinda gentleman* Dont worry. We are good guys. Have fun!

Harmless fun k?
Songs were good. Live band was great. Filipinoes can really sing!
A great night indeed especially with Korean instant noodles with tons of chilli padi as supper *highlight of the night!* Yum!

Failbooking.com

2010-06-09T03:13:00.005+08:00

This is so funny, I just had to share. Hehe

Sagittarius!

2010-06-09T02:49:00.002+08:00

Sagittarius Personality Profile: Astrological Characteristics of Those Born November 22 - December 21

Someone sent me this link.
The characteristics described were kinda accurate.
I am aware of some and hope to acquire others.

Totally digging these parts, "Love of travel" and 'Suited for non traditional environments"

Sagittarians love to travel and often believe that it is a better educator than school. They like to meet people in foreign lands and learn foreign languages. When traveling, they’d rather camp out with the locals than set up in a fancy hotel. Most Sagittarians also like outdoor pursuits such as hiking, camping or kayaking.

Sadly, lack the moolah. Supposed to have a piggy-bank for travelling purpose but the syilllings hardly able to even pay for airport tax.

Sagittarians often have trouble with traditional 9-5 careers. They will not follow the rules if they don’t believe that the rules are right and just. They have the courage to speak up for their convictions and fight for what they believe in, which can lead to clashes with authority. They are also very physical and have trouble with staying put in an office chair for hours on end. Sagittarians have a constant need for movement and novelty, and these requirements should be taken into account when planning a career.

I cannot picture myself staying put. I need to move, wriggle, crawl, golek.

I laughed-out-loud at this particular sentence about "Addictive and sensation seeking", which I felt was personally directing to me. Ouchhh.!

Sagittarians seek the next challenge and the next big adrenaline rush, and in some cases this sensation seeking can lead to drug abuse. Additionally, although they are energetic, physically strong, muscular and naturally athletic, many become fat or even obese *shit ass, NO WAY*through overeating and drinking. Alcoholism is a common Sagittarian ailment, as they don’t know when to stop and don’t listen to the signals their bodies send them. *my Indian liver never fails me though*

Click the link to read on further. Maybe get to know me more. *cough* HAHAHA
Give yours a try too.

The ups and downs of Emergency Department

2010-06-09T02:25:00.004+08:00

Downs:

Despite resuscitations effort, patients still expired. In the end, God decides who gets to live and who gets to go.
Expired patients' grieiving family members wailing, crying and sobbing. The first patient I saw today, her family members were crying but wasnt disturbingly loud. The second patient's family members were sobbing so loudly *don't get me wrong, I'm not annoyed but rather disturbed* I was in the verge of tearing myself though I was in the next cubicle doing ECG on another patient. All along, I thought I would be fine. The doctors, paramedics, nurses all seemed fine. "I cant be the only one being emotional," I said to myself. The thought of the patient being my grandparents *touchwood* is so heartbreaking. The patient's body was still warm! The first patient whom I did CPR, her body was cold and I dunno why it didnt hit me as bad as the second patient. Sigh. I guess it's a part-and-parcel of growing up in medic field. 2 deaths in a day.

Ups:

While helping a doctor to do ECG on a patient, I overhead this conversation between a medical assistant, A, was assisting me and another medical assistant.

B: Hey A, what's wrong with this patient?

A: Oh, *with a serious face*, dia kentut berdarah.

Me: *Literally burst out laughing but thank God there's face mask covering my medical student dignity*

B: *also with a straight face* Oh. Bloody flatus?

Sometimes this medical assistants are darn funny. Their spontaneity really cracked me up. Some of them do show respects to doctors. They make the working environment easier in alot of ways.

Different spectrum of cases are presented in the Emergency Department. Life will never be mundane. LOL.

Another bimbo rant

2010-06-02T02:02:00.005+08:00

Today, I learn that I need to set my priorities right. Family, studies and friend.

Overbearing anger, raging hormones, flaring of nostrils, fire breathing over unimportant folks really waste one's time and energy.
It is my choice in the end. I can just turn away, walk away, close one eye or both eyes, or push the delete button.

It could be my own distorted thinking but tell me whether it's right or wrong when others take on the important projects but leave the minion jobs to well, minion people i guess? I have no qualms fulfilling my responsibilites and given task because it is my interest in the end, but it really pissed me off to no boundaries when one only takes on job when there's OBVIOUS recognition, albeit hardwork/paperwork etc. Tell me which work one does, does not involve sacrifice hey? I'm not attention seeking but hell, at least inform or update, not keep things hush hush. Sheesh. Power/limelight-crazy people.

Me? Jealous, greedy for credit? Whatever that pleases you but I have voiced my dissatisfaction. Whether my point was made, I'm not sure and am really careless now.

*edited*
sentence bel0w typed out of irrational anger. dont wanna see such hatred and anger in myself.
It really doesnt matter ...
cos in 5 or 10 years time, you definitely will not be in my future

Bimbo rant

2010-05-31T00:12:00.005+08:00

Spent the Saturday with Shwuie, shopping at 2 bazaars, ChicPop and at the Curve.

Before I went out, this is what Mum told me;-
Mum: Have fun...... AND dont buy unnecessary things.
Me: Wokay! *had loads of preconception of kitcshy trinkets i might find in bazaars in mind*

What is unnecessary anyway? At the spur of moment, everything becomes necessary! Hak Hak

Went crazy when I saw the first few boutiques. Luckily, in a way, I am not born petite or else I'll ransack and quench my insatiable hunger for shopping, by buying all the items (oh those dresses *cries*) and render my parents bankrupt.

Did buy 3 dresses (one flowy summery dress, one military inspired top and another flowery dress), one top (korean-inspired), few leggings (dyed and flower prints plus 3/4), earrings, hairclips, a scarf (datin wannabe) and what nots. :P

Sometimes I forget that I'm in a very CONSERVATIVE med school where fashion is not in the dictionary. Sigh.
And since exam is coming soon, when la I'm gonna wear my pretty dresses?

Just for fun

2010-05-26T22:51:00.004+08:00

Patients never fail to amuse me.

Scene One:
In Polyclinic Peringgit, while withdrawing blood from a chinese uncle, approximately 60 years old? Conversation in Mandarin.

Chinese uncle: *chirpy friendly voice* Doctor, have to come again later a? *for 2 hours post prandial*
Me: Yes lo. Now you can go for your breakfast.
Chinese uncle: Wanna go with me a? Are you free?
Me : =.=" *muka maintain* Uncle, haha busy la. Anyways, medical student life not that good. We dont have teabreaks
Chinese uncle: Aiya, So sad a? I thought can buy you tea. Hehe.
Me: *stomach grumbles from hunger but mussssssst maintain* No la. Busy. Thanks uncle. (:

Then , after countless blood withdrawals, Chinese uncle came back 2 hours later, catching me off guard.
Chinese uncle: Pretty doctor!!! *His words ok? Not mine.* You are still here? You must be very busy!
Me: Oh uncle. *insert cold laughter* Yes I am. Didnt know it's already 2 hours! Haha You had your tea?
Chinese uncle: Yes lo. Thought you will come. Haha *I was preparing the syringe, needle and swab* You are not from around here?
Me: No, I'm from Klang.
Chinese uncle: How often you go back? You drive back?
Me: Yup. Once a month *lied, padahal more frequent but not that he'll sponsor my petrol if told him 2 or more sometimes?*
Chinese uncle: Wow. Nowadays girl very daring hor? Can drive back alone. bla bla bla *wasnt really concentrating cos was finding his veins and he was talking bout his relative or someone, used his car and met an accident then dare not drive anymore*
Me: *gave the occasional laughter and smile*
Chinese uncle: Aiya, then buy car insurance for what? Must make it worth it. Meet a few accidents is ok!
Me: *success! witdrew a 3ml syringe full while busy chit-chatting*
Chinese uncle: Doctor, next time when you are free, come find me at Sin Hoe garden. I stay at one of the houses, nearby the shoplots. House no XX. Okay!? I'll treat you!
Me: HAHA ok ok. Take care uncle!

Told mum about this particular incident. She had a good laugh. Mum asked why I attract uncles but not proper guys? SIGH.

Scene Two:
In Malacca GH, male medicine ward with Olive and Leeky.
I was standing in between them and Olive was casually asking a medical officer who was clerking a Malay patient.
The Malay patient immediately looked at my direction and asked, "Doctor dari CHINA ka?"
I was like, WTF?, shocked, which part of my face looks like China mui? smiled and before I can answer, he continued, "From Shanghai? You got the Shanghai look!"

Then he looked at the rest (Olive, Leeky and MO) for reassurance.

WHAT IS THE SHANGHAI LOOK? *googles frantically for shanghai look! .. no la. crazy.. not that paranoid*

According to him, he always go to China for business trips. His wife was beside him so I DONT think there's any hanky-panly business with China girls for the fear that his wife will interrogate him later, "Kenapa bang spesifik muka dia macam muka pompuan Shanghai?"

He says my complexion very similar. Smooth porcelain like? HAHAHA. I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THAT MY EYES ARE SEPET or SLITs ok?

Told him, "No, I'm Malaysian" *PROUD*, which he answered, "Oh, bagus, good.." Er.. T____________T

Nevertheless, I will take it as a compliment. MAYBE just maybeeeee, I look like a rich tai tai's....... daughter ok? *flips hair*

Someone

2010-05-04T22:30:00.002+08:00

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someone will come for you.
someone will run miles for you,
someone will be looking out for you.
someone will only have the eyes for you.

someone will bring you breakfast,
sit with you through lunch and
dream with you till dinner.

someone will make you milk to make it easier for you to sleep at night,
though you dont really need it.
someone will drink coffee with you and doze off together the next second.

someone will bring out the cooler in you,
will walk with you in a park,
fly a kite and joke till dawn with you.
someone will hail the cab,
take the train and seat beside you on a plane.

someone will cook for you, laugh with you
and cry the night with you.

someone will have a drink ready for you whenever you meet,
will share your food, eat your leftovers and would love to
eat desserts with you.

someone will say a prayer for you.
someone will cheer you on and encourage you.
someone will whisper sweet nothings to you,
and have a bear hug ready, everytime you feel like falling.

someone will fight for you and fight with you.
someone will hurt you one day but making up will be fun to do.
someone will cherish you.
someone will write a poem, a song or a rap for you.

someone will take pictures with you and pictures for you.
someone will go shopping with you, getting the illest kicks and stuff with you.
someone will marry you, and dressing up as a couple will be so fun to do.

someone will eventually appear.
someone will love you.
somewhere.
someday.
someone will be waiting for you.

over space, over time and beyond the lightyears...
someone will be consistent in loving you.

take heart,
someone is already planned for you,
and that someone is just finding the right time to appear,
in front of you.

Friendship talk

2010-04-30T00:06:00.004+08:00

It holds true that it's not the quantity but the qualtiy of the friendship that counts.
People enter our lives everyday; some might leave or some might stay; some make a difference or impact and some just remain as acquaintance.

I have to confessed that I've been a very lousy friend but am really touched by the concern and love given by my friends.

The other day, I promised Leeky to play squash with her around 6pm and headed to sleep. When the time comes to wake up, I had headache so I messaged her and told her I cant join her. Moments later, subconsicously I checked my phone and saw her replying that it was ok and she left her phone at home. I assumed all is well until the next day, when I met her coincidently in the hospital cafetaria and she joined me for breakfast. She seems like her usual happy mood. Then I left for my class. Told her I would see her in the afternoon. Then during the afternoon class, she was discussing vehemently with Olive but still joked around with me. Dunno why but I felt a tad bit distant. So, after class, she was talking to someone and I took my leave. From across the corridor, she shouted my name and called me over. I happily walked over and she told me in her cheerful but mischievious voice, that she cant stand it when I kept quiet and did not say anything. I told her that I dont understand what she meant. She proceeded to tell me that she waited for me for an hour yesterday evening at the squash court and she left her phone at home. To add on to the injury, Jeremy went for golf. OMG. My heart just fell. I felt so damn bad that I took my friend for granted. huhu. I immediately apologised profusely and offered to treat her teatime *not bribing in anyway but that's the least I can do* I am so glad she told me what happened. I am so glad that she did not "sweep it under the carpet". Over teatime, she told me stories that happened over the weekend while I was away. Sigh. She has every right to feel angry but she did not. I am confused by her actions. hahahah. I really felt relieved and glad that I did not lose her over this mistake (:

Today, Siong bought tickets for Ip Man 2 (which btw, is really a good movie. the kind of movie that gives me an unexplainable good feeling) and I am thankful for that. I think he bought it the second time, for me cos he initially bought tickets for the rest. I didnt know who else was going but only knew Chandan and Gayathri will be there. I did again my stupid habit of asking people out for dinner, a day before and then cancelled the last minute cos was dead tired *class ended late today*

I always assumed that at least they have company, so it's ok BUT I know it's NOT ok to break promises or simply assumed things and it's really a bad habit.

I met up with Gayathri and Chandan, who had their dinner there, at Dataran Pahlawan. There's like 10 minutes more till 9.20pm and I stupidly decided to packed a light dinner to have it in cinema. It took quite sometime and to walk from the stall to the cinema took approximatly 5 mins. Chandan went and took the tickets from the rest while Gayathri accompanied me to wait for my food. We reached the cinema entrance bout 9.27pm *approx la* and Gayathri wanted to go to the bathroom. So, me and Chandan entered first. Thankfully the movie havent started and they were playing advertisements. Siong managed to get the middle row. The rest were already seated. 4 guys including Siong. There was 2 seat empty beside Siong and another one right at the other end. The 4 guys were sitting between the empty seats. SO, I sat with Chandan initially and was surprised with the seating arrangement. I was told that my seat is the single seat at the other end. I DID say, "Er, can't you guys like, move a seat?" NOT that I am creating fuss but shouldn't guys be more gentleman? It's not that by moving a seat, the movie will be distorted. Yes, I know that I came in late but not that the movie has started also. I did not want to make things bad and decided to take the single seat at the other end, beside Chin and a a couple of strangers. I was fuming. Angry.

Tell me if I am overreacting or what? but I only came cos I knew Gayathri and Chandan were going. I did not know who else were there other than Siong who was kind enough to buy the tickets. If I wanted to be isolated, MIGHT AS WELL I BUY MY OWN TICKET AND WATCH ALONE. I wanted to send a long message and complained to Leeky *that also felt bad for not watching with her* but decided not too cos my AINO screen is damn huge. People beside me will be able to see what I've wrote. haha. I sent a SMS to Gayathri though. I felt so angry. Call me irrational or dramatic, whatever k! Chandan was so nice to offer to switch places. Made me feel bad cos I dont want to separate the couple. Told them it was ok but they insisted. 2 mins into the show, we switched places. I felt worse cos they were sharing popcorns and drink and now they are seating at both ends, with 5 of us in between. Sigh.

After the movie ended, the couple accompanied me to my car although their car is at the other end. My gosh. I felt so touched.

Thank you, my friends.

This post is really to remind myself not to take things for granted (:
and to announced their good deeds. haha

What I've been up to?

2010-04-18T22:19:00.003+08:00

Looks like I'm blogging on a weekly basis. Lol.

Starting from Wednesday night, was invited to Sum's birthday celebration. Had dinner at Simply Fish and proceeded to jetty for karaoke session.

It has been a long time since I went for karaoke session. The first time was with my ex-colleagues (3 girls). They sang Chinese songs and the banana me can only READ out a few simple chinese words and that too, the next sentence will appear. I do know how to sing Jay Chou's "Cloudy day/Qing Tian" *bits and pieces ler*

The second time was with 4 members of gTLiers (Yat tuang, MingChoi, Li Yee and Shin Fei). It was crazy boyband era songs man. We 80's babies do have many cheesy yet memorable songs to sing our hearts out. Backstreet Boys, Westlife, Spice Girls etc HAHAH What outing would it be without photo session following suit? hehe

This time around, the karaoke session was initially dominated by the guys but in the end, only me, Leeky and Alvin were last ones standing. Sum was knocked out earlier after countless shots of whisky. Leeky and I had our fair share of drinks, she just went from idle to energizer bunny with tomato flushed face. We sang our hearts and lungs out (without shoes) to Linkin Park. And the best part was, the huge room (the one's at the corner, literally on Straits of Malacca) was empty except for 3 of us and it was raining thunderstorms outside. Hardcore man. Seriously had so much fun, rocking the night away *insert graphics of me playing electric guitar like a pro*!

It was initially just a normal Wednesday night where Leeky and I planned for our "Ladies nite" but somehow the plan evolved to fit in many other activities. We had Baskin Robbins then played squash, followed by dinner. Supposed to meet up with Gayathri for drinks with her entourage at Jonker's too but managed to persuade her join the gang in Pure bar. hehe. *kinda busy night*

Leeky and I decided at 12 am to drop by Arena but they charge cover-charge for guys. Since Alvin was following us, we skipped the idea and headed to Pure bar. Thank goodness the heavy rain had stopped. So, we continued partying away in Pure bar. That place used to be so good. Now it's just like a mini Indonesia. My gosh. How can they allow Muslims to drink and dance there? If any JAIM members see this (not that they'll chance upon this), PLEASE raid that place on Wednesday night. And if Pure Bar management see this, do something before the crowd moves away.

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On Thursday, Olive's family invited me and Leeky over for dinner. Her parents are always welcoming. Homecooked food was delish! Really appreciate this friend of mine who has been always kind to us. Thank you so much.

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Friday was spent hanging out with the bestie.
Leeky sneaked out of Dr Wong's class, just to have breakfast and wanted to go back after breakfast. We even thought of excuses incase he found out. Was utterly talking rubbish in cafetaria until her groupmates came in, informing her that class has ended.
We then decided to do some productive work and Imanaged to drag her to Coffee Bean (not that I like that place but I had a buy1 free 1 coupon) lol!

An effeminate guy sat at the table next to us and had a tattoo of Maneki Neko, Japanese welcoming cat, on the extensor aspect of his right forearm. WTF? hahahaha
Seriously, how does he wave and say Hi? Up down or left right?

Night entertainment was spent at Tesco, snatching cheap toilet rolls from aunties. Not me, the friend.

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Saturday was another day spent in another coffee outlet, my all-time favourite, Starbucks.
How can you not like Dark Mocha or Javachip? Current love is Dark Mocha! Weee~
Barista was kind to let us try their new product which was some espresso affogato with coffee beans, topped with espresso whip cream, sprinkled with espresso powder. I tell you man, it's so crazy stuff. We went back around 5.30pm. Iwas on my bed from 6pm till 8.30pm, the body was out/flat/sour but the brain was working like it's on steroids. Woke up and found out that my dearest friend, Leeky, had the same problem. Hahahahha

It was so much fun realising that we are so compatible! We had been wearing similar styles twice this week although we have totally different fashion taste and wardrobe.

Decided to go over her place and do some work. Was offered alcohol but actually being guinea pig for the bartender wannabe. She mixed vodka with pink guava juice, apple juice and mixture of both. I had to drink it all. Madness. Spent bout 30 mins fighting, rolling on the bed, waiting for caffeine to wear off and stealing my warmth before we actually fall asleep.

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Sunday
Woke up for church. Realised there was a minor confusion but resolved nevertheless. Connected to God again.
Had organised a visitation to the old folks' home in the afternoon for Student Council.

I seriously do not understand how does people, after withdrawing their parents hard-earned EPF money, can actually throw them in the streets?
Or how do montrous children abandon their parents when they are well-to-do and living comfortably?
Even if they use the excuse of lack of time due to work to put their parents in the old folks' home, at least visit them often, drop by or pay a minimal fee for their management!

It's such a heartache seeing old people tearing up when they speak about their children who abandon them. Children who are grown up, independent and lead a successful life. Do they not know that THEY to will grow OLD? and I pray that one day the same thing will bestow them!

And I really appreciate volunteers who sacrifice their time, patience, money and life to take care of this unfortunate citizens. That include students who volunteered their time today. There's definitely a difference we made, the smile on their faces say it all and that's the reward we get. The old folks' needed companion, someone to talk to, to feel important or significant and not to be forgotten.

I am positive that during the journey back in the college bus, everyone was feeling happy and contented, because I did. The atmosphere was different from the time when we were on the way towards the home. It was arterall a lazy Sunday afternoon (:

I felt a little gesture does made a difference. I am glad the old folks' had new mattresses to sleep on (donation of used but good condition matteresses from the college), entertained by our presence and performances and had fun talking to us.

I learn to apppreciate my parent and granparent more today.
It brings me tears to know that one day we will be parted. Hence, it's best to enjoy every moment with them.

Seafood mui and Brown-haired aunty

2010-04-03T17:06:00.002+08:00

This morning started off well.
Leeky and me went for a game of squash at bout 8.30am, although we crapped for 2 hours on MSN last night till bout 2am?

I have been waking up early for this passt few days probably cos I slept too much in the afternoon while my other batchmates are toiling in the wards. My conscience wouldnt let me indulged further in dreamland.

Anyways, after squash, we went for breakfast at the usual dim sum place. Had a blast literally laughing out loud at Jeremy and Leeky's bickering over... anything.

Then decided to have my hair trimmed cos it was trapping too much heat *especially in the afternoon and squash game* No complaints bout it but Leeky regretted trimming her hair cos she wanted to preserved her wavy locks. Oh well. LOL The hairdresser had the guts to tell her to return the next time to have her hair perm again.

Since I've been non productive in my studies for so long, I've decided to do some work in Starbucks, Mahkota Parade. Going to town in the afternoon on Saturday is a suicidal act, unless you know other alternative route. Finding parking was a breeze. Then, I had the urge to micturate. The ladies' on the groud floor was out-of-service for cleaning purpose. Had to dragged myself, with overflowing bladder to the first floor.

Then the drama begins.

The ladies' on the first floor was full due to the above-mentioned problem. People were queing up for their turn. There were about 10 cubicles and by COMMON COW SENSE, forming a line would be faster as when one comes out from ANY cubicle, another one can enter, INSTEAD of waiting outside of a single cubicle. I have no problem with it IF there isn't ANY line formed at first. Since there is, FOR FCUK's sake, respect others who are lining up or brace yourself for embarrassment *unless multiple coats of PAINT were applied on the face/muka tebal*

So, there I was, 4th in the line, with another probably 4 behind me, some with kids. First, a seafood mui/lalamui *shit colour for you* who I thought was Malay, nonchalantly walked past the queue and stood in front of one of the inner cubicles. 3 ladies in front of me were fidgeting but none said a thing. When a lady came out from the front cubicle, the first lady in line immediately went in. So, seafood gal lost her chance *at that point, I thought seafood gal was waiting or looking for a friend* Then another cubicle door opened in the opposite front row and second lady in line quickly went in. By this time, the queue behind of me was getting longer as more people are coming in. A middle-aged lady in uniform, probably a promoter, also coolly walked past the entire line and stood in front of one of the inner cubicles. I DID NOT SAY A THING YET cos it wasnt my turn in line. 3rd in line was a Arabian foreign lady. Another cubicle door opened and the seafood gal had the guts to turn over to the cubicle when she wasnt even standing in front of it. The foreign lady rushed over to that cubicle and insisted to go in. She did. Then middle-aged aunty who NATURALLY formed an alliance with the seafood gal, asked the seafood gal, in mandarin, whether she was in front of the foreigner or later? It was my turn in line.

I told off both of them that there was a queue where everyone is waiting for their turn. Both of them had cut the queue. The middle-aged aunty told me that by queieng up, it will take longer time and seafood gal agreed. I DUNNO WHAT THEIR BRAINS ARE MADE OF? TAUFU? SEAWEED? EMPTY perhaps?

If you think by waiting in front of one cubicle is right or faster, then wait for the one where you are standing in front of and NOT bloody turn to every single others than had open. I then told them, since there was already a queue, shouldn't you learn how to respect others who have been waiting? They gave me the I-dunno-we-have-been-doing-this-in-the-kampung-all-the-while look! ARRGHHH. How can people be so ignorant and indifferent? Just admit your bloody mistake and start queing up la!

I told them, 'Fine. Up to you. But it IS my turn AND I have been lining up" and immediately entered an empty cubicle.

Maybe is their luck. The cubicles they were waiting for, were still occupied after so long.
They were still waiting after I came out.
People behind me were giving them the stares but none said anything to support me.
Oh well. At least I confronted them or else I would die of anger.
Hopefully, when they want to cut queue the next time, they will think of me. HAHAHA

Cherating, Pahang

2010-03-28T22:24:00.010+08:00

Kuantan, Pahang has been a town of surprises.
The family followed dad to Pekan town, to meet a friend.
We stayed overnight at Suria Cherating Beach Resort, neigbouring Club Med.

Mum was like a small kid, excited to play in the water. For a person who detests being tan and protects her fairness ferociously, she was out in the sun for quite some time (:
The next morning, she contained all her excitment and stayed clear from the sun. Unless.. covered by a beach towel.
Dad was being vain bout his hair. How the wind messes his hair? and he doesn't want his photo to be taken.
Youngest bro, was busy snapping photos, of HIMSELF *vainer than me* with his DSLR. Am glad he finds a passion of somesort for photography.
Younger bro is far away in land of curry. He is greatly missed!

And me, I just enjoy the sound of the ocean, clear blue sky, cool breeze *can be a menace tho, tangles the hair*, clean beach and having happy pictures taken!

Soon.. I'll learn diving, get a license. Then I can explore the underworld instead of just snorkeling or laze by the beach ^^

Some highlights of the journey:-

--> tried the famous Kemaman Kopitiam according to Wikitravel

--> Pantai Sepat, the stretch where our hotel is located. The beach in the morning is really beautiful, as can be seen in the photos. Bro and me found that the waves break about 20ms from the shoreline and went to explore. We discovered that the sea deepens near the shoreline and becomes shallow at where the waves break. Damn cool!

By the way, mum smuggled durian into the hotel room. The good news was we changed room cos the air cond wasnt working properly. Hahaa So, new room without the mess and smell!

--> Dinner at Chukai town, at a restaurant called River Bent cos it really described the river located across the restaurant. The river bends at a 45 degrees or so. (:

--> Then visited Gua Charas. Another gem of the place and mainly popular amongst Hindus and Buddhists because the cave contains a sleeping Buddha, many statues and a mini Hindu temple. The cave literally looks like a World War 2 bunker or something like that mainly cos it's dimly lit. We actually had to climb up a few flights of stairs and descend into the cave.

Photos!

I learn that travelling without expectations can sometimes produce unexpected good outcomes. I guess it doesnt matter which country, island or planet but as long as the adventurous spirit is there!

We had a stress free trip and spent quality time together. The only stressor was the sun!

To Bali, With love

2010-03-24T15:42:00.006+08:00

*I've reached my 202nd posts!
It's an achieviement, I tell you. Many times I wanted to give up blogging cos I doubt my abilities to blog. I dont really have a particular niche but I guess I take my blog as a place to vent out my angers on life but too chicken to do any confrontation, also a place where I wanna share my feelings to people who really care about me and a place where I see the progression of my life and reflect on the past. Sometimes, when I'm bored, I would read my previous posts and still laugh at my silly thoughts at those moments.
To those who have been reading my blog all these times, thanks for dropping by (: *

Having said that, Bali was a bomb *pun not intended*
I had so much fun with Leeky and Gayathri plus Gayathri's sister, Kasturi.

We were so independent, energetic, loud and crazy most of the time but of course, nothing wild *innocent haloes*
850++ photos alone on my camera for 4 days.

Some photos to summed up the best moments of the short vacation.

Rock Bar at Ayana Beach Resort.
Highly recommended place in Bali

Hear no evil, Speak no evil and See no evil

Wow factor!
We had the best seats. This is the award we had for being early and were baked under the sun

Super friendly Balinese at Jimbaran Bay for dinner

Charlie's Angels (locals called us that while we were walking) at Seminyak beach

Pantai Geger, Nusa Dua
Adjacent to the St. Regis Resort beach

Clubbing in Legian 61
After drinking at Vi Ai Pi bar, in the next building

4 Balinese princesses. Haha.

Lunch, facing the volcano in Kintamani.
Paid an absurd amount for medicore food, prolly for the breathtaking view.

One of my favourite pictures with Leeky at Tanah Lot.

Photo looks nice but I was scared as hell.

Locals there were friendly and nice. I would say Balinese hospitality is 4/5!

There's one incident where Leeky and I were trying the local food, Bakso (beef balls in soup, superbly sedap!) at a stall by the main road and were bugged by vendors selling stuff. We were not interested and just shooing them away cos we just wanted to eat in peace. Then one of the vendors tapped me on the shoulder, I was a bit pissed off but luckily did not do or say anything bad cos what the good man wanted to do was just to asked me to stand inside a bit cos it was dangerous to stand by the road since it's a real busy road. He pointed to an empty lot beside the food stall. Oh my. I was so impressed. (:

Of course there were the occasional people who wanted to cheat us but I guess it's their way of tryng to earn a living.

All in all, good place, good food, good atmosphere, right crowd. ^^

Filler

2010-03-18T02:02:00.003+08:00

I should just smack myself in the head.

How many times I've told myself not to procrastinate and here I am doing tons of backlog work all due today! (like another 4 hours to dawn) Plus another visit to the doc for me cough and after-class meeting with HOD of Ortho department.

6 discussions, 2 postnatal case and power point presentation, an unwell body with TB-like dry cough plus a bed that is within close proximity. Not good at all. Tsk tsk.

Whine whine whine. yadda yadda yadda. *fuuuuh*

Just need to ramble my thoughts off.

Arrgh. I cant wait for Friday!

1st week of March

2010-03-08T23:20:00.012+08:00

Oh, wow! I have a confession to make.
Last Saturday was the worse public outburst I had in years.

I had a bad week. I've been sick for 5 days and on porridge diet just to fill my stomach for medication. Thursday was the only day where I attended proper full day class and my condition worsen in the evening and I had to see the doctor again. I saw a doctor on Tuesday night and was given a course of antibiotics which wasn't strong enough.

I had fever on and off, with chills, followed by profuse sweating, lethargy and the cycle repeats itself. Top it off with dry cough and running nose. Second doctor gave me a stronger course of antibiotics and gave the option of admitting into hospital. No way I'm gonna waste my time on bed any longer. Thankfully, I was fine for the weekend.

Saturday, family came down for bro's orientation. Had a fulfilling and happy outing day, acting tourisy :), ending it off with scrumptious seafood meal.

Went to Alicia's belated birthday dinner at bout 8.30pm after family had went back. Overall, party was fun but there were few people who ticked me off. Seriously, whatever happen in my life is my life. I do not need you to blabber about me. If I really wanted people to know, I'll tell it myself. It is afterall, story bout me. Yeah. I got close with a guy and everyone saw. So? I was happy, if you want to know. I don't mind the friendly teasing *yes, talking bout some of you ^^* but some people really get on my nerves. If you regard yourself as my friend, at least have the decency to talk properly about me. If not, buzz off. I do not need you to publish about my life online. I can do it myself. Stop being a jealous sport. Bluek. Urrgh. How I wish I have to courage to say it to that person personally.

I really wanted to go home bout 12.30am but decided to stay longer as wished by the birthday girl (: Then, again wanted to go home at 2.00 am and again at 3am but there were factors stopping me *my own free will to stay back, dont get me wrong and I know friends who really enjoy my company - self-praised* And sometimes, I dunno why there must be a point in the any party for me to prove that I've been drinking. People refused to believe that I've drank a lot just because I've been standing straight and behaved properly. Trust me. I drank enough for a person who has yet to recover fully. Finally, when I decided to leave *i do have church in the morning* , again there were factors stopping me. I just... exploded, "Why can't I freaking make my own decision to leave? and some other stuff". Sounded like a primadonna rite? hahaha. And I can hear myself fuming in anger. Urggh.

The worse part was, I wasn't even high, forget bout drunk and am fully aware of what is happening. HAHAHA The utter embarassment.

Ok. My point is, it wasn't my intention to throw tantrums but I guess there were several factors that lead to the outburst. Sigh. I've said my apologies to the relevant parties or rather innocent victims who had to endure my screams.

In the end, after telling my closest friends, they are the one who truly understand me without me explaining why I did what I did although it was wrong.

I take it to my onus to confess cos I really felt bad for expressing my frustrations on random people.

Lessons to be learn:
- next time leave quietly. report once reach home safely.
- alcohol might cure what ever sickness you have but it definitely worsen coughs.
- anger once released, cannot be retracted.
- some people will remain unimportant in one's life. let them remain that way.

Happier moments

xoxo

One hell of a weekend

2010-02-28T18:24:00.005+08:00

*Touch wood* Sooner or later, my blog will turn into a journal of somesort to document the number of accidents i encounter. Seriously, WTF! Accidents SHOULD at least happen after a period of hiatus
*touch wood again* and not as frequent as this. It's bad for my mental health OK! I'll get immune to it. Somesort of sensitization?! *touch wood 3rd time* 3 freaking times in total now.

I dunno why I'm always the victim. At least if I knock someone's vehicle *touchwood 4th time*, I have no one to blame but my own carelessness and can happily claim insurance but NOOOO, SOME irresponsible, nimcompoop, shit-filled brain REMPITS who should burn in HELL have to hurt my car.

It was a red light at the traffic light where all cars have came to a complete halt. I was waiting to u-turn towards McD. Then suddenly, this rempit guy hit my bumper from the back. He was coming at quite a fast speed cos from my mirror, I could see him somesort of somersaulted. Gayathri was in the front seat with me. Both of us were utterly shocked. That babified fella got the cheat to pick up his bike and sped off. Tell me know, is my anger justified?? ASSHOLE. Furthermore, the whole stretch facing the road was jam-packed with rempits's bikes and car. Even if the fella stayed, I wouldn't dare negotiate with him, lest my Blackie will suffer more.

From the first inspection shows a bit of scrapped, vertical cracked measuring 7cm and right side of bumper came out.
When I tried drving the car, there was a dragging sound. So, inspected the second time and found out that the bumper was impeding on the exhaust pipe, which was pushed on the tyre. CRAP!

Luckily, a kind Malay driver from the back car came down and help to pull the bumper outwards and upwards. I guess he saw the whole incident.

Sighh!

Sad story aside.

It was a great night having foreign students from Learning Across Border Programme last night, on campus. I actually had fun talking politics with a Taiwanese guy majoring in International Relations, Willie and a Japanese guy, Hayato. They are such nice people. They actually came over to me while I was getting food and somesort of waited for me and asked me whether I would like to join their table. For the fact that the foreign students started to take their food from the buffet line 15 mins earlier and I was loitering around, they havent touch their meals. Wow. ^^

Then Daveena joined our table. Willie was very interested with our current political issue and he is quite knowledgeable for the fact that the news he read online was propaganda. Yup. We did a bit of re-educating our fellow foreign friends on our education system, democratic freedom, religion etc. He was shocked but nevertheless, understood our dissatisfaction. If there's me alone stating my mind, it'll definitely sounded bias but luckily Daveena was also there to give her opinions. He asked us whether are we still loyal to our country? I told him, "I have to admit that I love my country. There's no typhoon, earthquakes, volcanoes, snowstorm and we have the best food but I really do not like the government and its policy." In the end, we pretty much summed up that although our government is working towards equality for all, 1Malaysia concept, but there are people (majority population) who are afraid of changes and their rights vs the rest of the minority who are well-educated andare the driving force behind the nation's economy, hence the dilemma faced by the current governing party.

Hayato, the Jap boy was more of the shy one. Willie had to prompt him to ask questions about us. His questions consisted of, do I have boyfriend, what we do to pass time, Japanese anime. Typical Japanese man. His eyes sparkled and his face lighted up when a particular topic which interest him was discussed like Shin Chan, Jap drama, idol group. He went, "OHhhh."

Willie likes to teased Hayato. Few examples are like, Willie directly ask me is Hayato cute? HAHAHA Do I like him? WTH! hahaha
And I of course had to ask back the same question right? hehe and the answer was yes, of course. :D

But it was good 1 hour plus conversation. Glad that I talked to them. XD

Then we offered to take them around since Jonker Street is closed at around 11pm. We took them to the Jetty. I must say the scenery there is really beautiful at night. Plus, there were fireworks. (: It would be better if there's wind cos the air was still and humid. We quickly proceeded to have dessert. Ice kacang and chendol for our foreign friends. Not the best but.. will do. The Taiwanese friends were also quite happy to be able to read the Chinese letters. They were busy ordering food for themselves.

Oh, and I was having conversation with this guy from Switzerland, Steven, along the way to Jetty. Kinda funny guy. At one point, he was asking me to teach him some Cantonese words. And as we walked further, I pointed out to the shore,

Me: Look, low tide!
Him: *looking blur for awhile* Low Thai?

Me: Huh? Low TIDEE! there..

Him: Low Thai? I dun understand the Chinese word you just said.

Me: What? It's English! High tide. Low tideee.! OMG. hahahha

Him: Ooh! I'm so sorry. *apologised profusely*

Me: Do I sound as though I have think Chinese accent? *fuming*

All this while, Gayathri and Baveen were listening to our conversation. -________-" They were laughing their heads off.

Those who wanted to party on were whisked to Pure Bar. lol! whereas the rest headed back to the hotel at around 1.30am.

So yeah, party all the way till Pure closes at 3am THEN headed to Gayathri's place to continue. :)

The foreign students went back at around 5am, I lasted till around 7.30am. Really needed to sleep! huhu The rest were high on alco. Partied till 9am. Crazy.

K. Now for picturesss!

Before they were shuffled

skip a few games

Dinner time

Peeps on my table! (:

(L-R: Willie, Daveena, Hayato)

Me, Steven and Nen

What drama friends I have

Anyong-haseyo

2010-02-22T01:19:00.002+08:00

"I'll be back, Korea", was my final thought before leaving the beautiful country. The next time, back-packing style. (:

Sleep. Dream.

2010-01-18T22:34:00.009+08:00

May sleep envelop you as a bed sheet floating gently down, tickling your skin and removing every worry. Reminding you to consider only this moment. ~Jeb Dickerson

Some of my sweetest memories happened during my sleep.
It's those moment when I refused to get up cos it's too good to be true. I would sleep back just to continue my dream. Hey, dont tell me it had never happen to you before k? :P

Problems always look smaller after a warm meal and a good
night's sleep.

Laugh all you want (: but I'm still going to share some.

Once, I dreamt of a friend telling me a joke. I am somehow conscious that I am laughing and tried so hard to remember the joke. I literally laughed out loud to the extent that my room mate at the time, Alicia, got a shock *She was studying while I was asleep* She initially thought that she was hearing things until I turned my back to face her and laughed again. The point is I remembered the joke being funny while asleep. ^^

Then there's one where I was an anime character. That was 3 or 4 years ago. I vividly remember because at that time I was "in love" with the lead character from a Japanese anime called "Ayashi no ceres".
Somehow, I was his girlfirend. WAHAHAH. Enough said.

There's also a time when I dreamt that I confessed to the guy that I like during secondary school. I had admire this guy for the longest time cos we sit the same bus to school. He was from ACS and me, from MGS. We even went to the same tuition centre. He has very fair complexion and his face turns red easily. Such a hunk, I thought at that time. But being the gutless me can only admire from afar. Hehe. So, back to this dream. I confessed to him under the weirdest circumstances. It was in the school bus and after the uncle bus picked him from his school which was before mine, there was an empty space beside him. I just sat there and did not move. I did not even dare to breathe. HAHAH. Because both of us stayed quite far, we were the very last few in the bus. And I mustered all my courage and just told him I like him. And, he blushed.. The look on his face was priceless. MWHAHAHA. It was only a dream ok but such a sweet one. Maybe it reflects what I had wanted for a very long time (:

But a dream is only a dream. Being awake makes dream possible. Maybe one day I'll confess to a guy I like. Just like my dream but only this time, I'll have to face the consequences. (: or maybe not. The one and only time I confessed in real life ended disastrously :(

Dreams are illustrations... from the book your soul is writing about you. ~Marsha Norman

In another context, not being in the state of 'eternal sleep' is a blessing we take for granted everyday.. remember to thank God for being alive, each day.

p.s: I just realised my current favourite song is related to the title of this post. ^^ Mimpi Yang Sempurna by PeterPan. It's so addictive! Yum!

Live life

2010-01-16T14:54:00.003+08:00

It gives me goosebumps, to think that it could happen to anyone.

Though I do not know you personally, but I KNEW you, seen you, spoke to you a few words just last night.

Rest In Peace, friend.

Life IS unexpected. And I am not merely stating a general fact.

I was turning left at the junction beside the traffic light today, when all cars came to a stall, and this bloody car behind me just suddenly knocked my bumper. Like WTF? Here I was just doing my own business, in my own lane, and I got knocked for no apparent reason.

The Malay Indon guy apologised profusely, said he was in the wrong and he accidentalyy released his brake. I immediately asked him to pay, upfront RM 300, he said he has no money bullshit etc. SIGH. Then he gave me RM150 after digging money from every hole he has.

It hurts that the car requires repair (rm400+) but comparing to a life lost today, it's such a numbing feeling.

Surgery posting

2010-01-05T21:20:00.005+08:00

By far, most surgeons I come across are kinda pervert. What I meant is... they like to make dirty jokes. Some are just uncomfortable and some can be quite funny even if the surgeons are not trying to be funny. :)

Today, another one confirm the observation.

He was saying that the feeling of inserting a rigid sigmoidoscope is like subjecting the patient to sodomy. Some patients may like it, some may not. HAHAHAH. It's gonna freaking stick in my mind now! Urggh.

I present to you, a rigid sigmoidoscope.

Happie New Year! (:

2010-01-04T02:23:00.003+08:00

Happie New Year to all my non existent readers hehe

Thanks for following on my updates/drama/rants/biatch talk.

Would like to write my new year resolutions since I'm a grown up now and I believe I can stick to some of it. *hahaha spouting nonsense at 2.30am cos reluctant to sleep tho i'm tired. does it make any sense?*. Soon soon. First in the list should be stop procrastinating tho. Major DOT FAIL DOT COM. Irony.

Here's to another year of the blog. *puts up imaginary toast*

<3

2009-11-29T23:07:00.006+08:00

It's not easy finding recreational activities to do during the weekends in Klang Valley.. We have the nature parks, forest, land, etc but lack the management to popularise and utilize it to the max. Even with government allotted money, only 1% is used for the maintenance. Sad indeed but I guess we can only made do with what we have. 2 Sundays back, we went to Bukit Cahaya Alam in Shah Alam cos I wanted to cycle badly. I had in mind the picture of the East Coast in Singapore but was disappointed with the upkeep of the place for the amount they charge; RM3 for adult. It is clean with basic utilities but lack the attraction, the information notice board was like a thousand years old, places of interests are old; one word sum it all = rundown. It is definitely not a place I will recommend to tourists but nevertheless a good place for family to hang out.

Mr. Skinny with 6 packs posing with the fishes at the dam.

Ms. Poser, er, not posing at all.

Family pic while waiting for bus ride

Dad feels right at home

Very emo-Malay-style brothers

Fishes there are scary ass, I swear, they can jump.

Mum showing her moves

Stopped over by the peacocks' den, apart from resting from cycling the crazy "uphill-downhill" terrain

According to my bros, the peacock's coos sounded like "ku ku chiao" *pardon the crudeness*

While I was busy camwhoring,..

.. my "lovely" brothers decided to let their creative side run wild..

randomness~

<3>

Sup?

2009-11-26T22:19:00.002+08:00

It's funny that when I think that I had grasped the concept of friendship (after going through a few bad ones), whether it's acceptance or tolerance, the boundaries are still so vague.

I thought I can accept a friend as her/his ownself but it's not easy. How do you tell a friend you do not like her/his ways when she/he does not see the fault? It is afterall their cumulative and cultivated character and habits over the years.

Confused. Will I be known as a hypocrite if I still be friends but distant at the same time cos of the thoughts?
I guess being myself is the safest bet. *whatever that means*
I know I am full of flaws too but I am definitely up for suggestions and changes if I deem reasonable le.

Then there's always avoidance. Like some people who I do not find need to acknowledge. Mean~

On impulse(s)

2009-09-25T20:43:00.005+08:00

Today,
I had so much fun,
jumping into the pool,
with Leeky,
after a long hour of sweating it out from playing squash!
HAHAH
*we cheated a bit cos we were wearing swimming suit la*

BUT

this wasnt the first time

The first time was purely on impulse, when everyone was busy stressing out, we were playing squash *library was too hypoxic k*
And after the game, the entire sports complex was so empty and it was about 8.45 pm.
AND, the pool looked so serene and calm and we were sweaty and hot. HAHA

So, we took out our shirt, shoes and socks and jumped in. La la la la.. of cos we were wearing proper bra. *blush*

Then the guard have to go and switch on the lights. hahah made us hide at the corner of the pool
Anak sungai style wei~
^^
***
Less then 5 minutes in the pool last nite,
we made the final decision to visit Batu Pahat (Leeky's hometown), after a day of dilly-dallying.
We wanted to go there for the famous crab dishes by the jetty. Unfortunately we left late and reached there bout only 12 am, just in time to see the restaurant close. :)

Nevertheless, the view by the jetty, where we had to walk on cemented stilts on the sea (bout 100ms) was breathtaking. What I like the most was the lighthouse view across the sea. So calming~
We had to walked pass peoples' houses to the seaside. Kinda remind me off Pulau Ketam in Klang. So traditional lifestyle. ^^

Then it had to rain. Huge fat ass droplets, torrential rain I have to say. Hungry and cold, we stopped at another restaurant to fill our stomachs.

Sadly, we missed Leeky's parents' who went to JB that nite. We managed to visit her sister's new cafe though. Very nice ambience with edgy furniture.

I reached hostel bout 3am. As usual, if we arrived late, we have to fill in the book before entering the hostel door. I was thinking what reason to write? *some of my previous reasons was supper = clubbing, supper = drinking session, study = supper* For last nite, I simply wrote, went back to hometown. Not mine but nevertheless. (:

In the end, it was quite fun. Tired, but I would like to visit the small little bustling town again someday. (:
Thanks Leeks and Jeremy for the late night road trip :)

Rant

2009-09-24T14:43:00.004+08:00

I wanted to let it all out.
The thoughts are killing me.
So, I decided to signed into FB, to rant out my thoughts.
Instead, I am greeted with so many happy shoutouts *i am happy that they are confident that they'll pass* and people who are already posting up the cases that are out today. But seriously, is it necessary? We went through fair and square ok?

I guess life IS unfair.

... I immediately exed the page off, and ended up here.

First and foremost, while we were quarantined in the room, awaiting our turns for long cases, some jackasses or smart alecks decided to SPECULATE or DECODE the allocated numbers that we had. Initially, I was ignoring them, got so pissed when they expected everyone (20 +) in the room to take part in their little session because their "brains" were satured and they can't study. To the point where they were so confident, I was shaken too. Scared to my core cos apparently I am supposed to get Paedatrics case. This particular "her" had the guts to walk around, happily proclaiming that she's glad that she managed to get O & G cases because it was either my allocated number or hers, will get either Ped 0r O&G and she have to let everyone know what's on her freaking mind. I am pissed. Cos we all are there for our exams, not to hear you freaking whine. Best part is others actually entertain her. Anyways, so, like I said, I got influenced and studied on Pediatrics for the last one hour and when the invigilator came to get me, he told me my case is an O & G case. Well, not that I am complaining at that moment cos I was aiming for O&G case.

Saying this, another friend was also expecting an ortho case cos of their conclusion but she had Peds case which was equally tough as mine. ):

Then hell began. As the invigilator was leading me to obstetrics ward, the corresponding medical officer said the fourth case is at the gynaecology ward. I was thinking, " i hope it's fibriods or ovarian cyst". Sigh. I guess it's just not my day. My patient has a freaking long history of carcinoma of cervix, had TAH BSO done last year, presented with ascites, had radiotherapy + chemotherapy done and left lower limb swelling. To her credit, my patient was cooperative * i was thinking after the exam, the person who wanted badly to get an o&g case should have this case cos this patient only speaks in MANDARIN* but she has shortness of breath, abdomen discomfort and forgotten details about her own condition. I had to clerk a freaking long history with only 15 minutes for examination of the abdomen and just my luck, when the examiners came, they were Dr. Sameera and Dr. Yang (surgical consultant). I knew I was dead.

He freaking expected me to examine the left lower limb swelling as a proper examination plus I had to do abdomen examination proper and other systems as well, since she presented with ascites.

He also asked a whole bunch of surgical questions and I didnt have time to answer any O&G questions. Not that I know also, cos wasnt expecting ca cervix.

Now I really know why people created the word, "F*CK". It's for such situations..

Sighhh..

Stress kao kao.

Monosaturated

2009-09-23T01:21:00.003+08:00

I am suffocating.. can I go somewhere till the exam is over?
Feel so inadequate, unequipped for the exam, in spite of facing the books for hours a day.
AND
The thought of repeating the course, shit, damn stress k..
I know everyone handles stress differently and mine, happens to be the "avoiding/escaping-from-reality" one. -.-"

God save me. And the rest of the batch who is going for battle on Thursday onwards. Amen

My ambitions

2009-09-05T03:27:00.003+08:00

In between studying time, I managed to slot myself some daydreaming privileges *hence the lack of productiveness* about my childhood ambitions and the ones that still hold true..

When I was a pre-schooler, I wanted to be a cook/chef.

Everytime before my kindergarten teacher starts to cook, she uses a stovelighter in the shape of a gun to start the fire on the stove. I was in awed.. I made it a resolution to get the gun thingamajig at that time. Before you start to think, "Why Leech's kindergarten damn ganas one? Showing children all this fire thingy and stove?", the mini kitchen was situated at a gangway where we usually just walk passed the stoves to my class. The teacher probably didnt know but my eyes were preying the stovelighters like a hawk on a chick *mwhaha* Finally, one day, while "passing by", me and my 2 other friends stopped by for a minute and started to play with the stovelighters while nobody else was around. I was damn inspired ok. *now, it does sound like I am a bit jakun* Needless to say, our class teacher caught us playing with it and we were punished to sit by the swimming pool while watching other classmates swim. The teachers also made it a rule to keep all stovelighters out of sight. Coming back to why I wanted to be a chef. I guessed at that time, the only way to play with the stovelighter is to be a chef! ta-daaa!

Then proceeding to standard 1, nearly everyone wants to be a school teacher *dont bluff k. i know you want to!* including myself. My reason is because I like to correct other students exercise books with red pen, especially huge X /pangkah/salah or 0 / telur. HAHA

There's also normal other stuffs like:-
>>astronaut .. to a primary school kid, space traveling seems easy and fun

>> prime minister (can advocate for more school holidays)

>> doctor (never thought that I would really end up studying medicine).. during standard 3, I vividly remember how me and my other friends used an eraser and tied it to a pencil, acting as a knee hammer and pencil on another eraser (acting as the fulcrum) as an electrocardiogram. So creative rite? and I mentioned before how by arriving at the clinic and seeing the doctor, the sickness will mysteriously disappear.. (:

>> ambassador in a foreign country cos they can travel and stay overseas while getting paid!

Then secondary school phase, there's:-
>> kindergarten teacher cos at one point I like kids a lot especially when they say the darnest things but as years passed, the thought of cleaning poop and urine doesn't seem so interesting anymore. This also affect my initial interest in Pediatrics. Some say I have talent with kids but trust me, it take loads of work. Try entertaining a bunch of cousins who are way younger than me. The boys: I have to play hide n seek, war games, tell jokes, play cars & accidents and imaginary friends etc and the girls: have to answer 1001 questions about anything, play princess, read story books. Whoaaa.. the patience man..

>> globe trekker .. i had seriously thought of just dumping everything and travel around the world but in an Asian society and being the eldest in the family, this dream remains just a dream but I will one day travel the world. *insert olympic music* but this dream is not really a dream cos if I successfully graduate as a doctor, I have looong to join Doctors without Borders or maybe begin with home, Mercy Malaysia. With that, I get to travel and help people. ^^ I do know the risks and heartaches involved, not mere fantasising k.

>> veterinarian, cos other than kids, I also like animals *not that I equate them. hahah * I think this idea was greatly influenced by my grandma's friend who is a SPCA committee member and have 11 dogs. She always tell me bout her experience in spca. I volunteered once at SPCA with my bestie, Emmie. Initially, our chores were just playing with the puppies and bathe them. Then the higher authorities made us wash the kennels. Both of us have to transfer one dog to another kennel, wash it and then return the dog back and repeat the process a billion times. The "uncute" dogs pooped and peed in the kennels right after we cleaned it. Urggh.! Not easy k, their shit were everywhere plus the smeeellll. Fuyorh! but.. Can't blame them cos they were cold. When my dad picked both of us up, he said we smell like dogs ourselves. Sheessh. What happen to this dream? apparently, they only look cool in TVs. Hmm.. but I bet life will be easier and more satisfaction.... cos veterinarians dont wash kennels la.. oh well.. and veterinarians need to study bout every single animal systems I presumed and doctor only need to study bout human? hmm..

Currently, dreams that I still hold on to:-
>>open a bakery/cafe .... I just love the smell of freshly baked bread and also freshly brewed coffee. If I have a cafe, the theme will either be "Angel": ornaments of anything related to angels, with white fluffy cushions OR the cafe will have different sets of furnitures for every table to cater different groups. Wah. really dreaming hey? hehe

>> as I've mentioned, travel the world while helping people. Sounds cheesy but might as well use my expertise rite? but

>> rich man's wife. a tai-tai. datin. HAHAHAH not mistress k. or inherit a huge fortune from a long lost emperor of China, thank you very much.

dreams will remain as dreams.. without moolah.. reality bites man...

all this i guess can only happen when I am able to make my family comfortable with their lives :)

wht's your deepest dream and ambition hey?

RRrr!

2009-08-17T23:01:00.003+08:00

Need-to-hide-the-laptop-in-a-far-away-hard-to-reach-secluded-secret-place-where-i-can't-get-it-cos-I-am-addicted-to-the-net-h-e-l-p-m-e-cos-I-will-be-the-one-who-keeps-it-and-bring-it-out-in-the-end-such-weak-willpower-I-have

/cries/emo/bangs head

this-is-a-public-distress-call. hu-hu-hu

URGH!

2009-07-31T19:58:00.005+08:00

I wanna screammmmmmmmm.. arrghhhhh!!!!!!!..
Apparently things should remain confidential after the "meeting" esp nothin should be on facebook. Try to control this bast*rd and bit*hes!!!
This is my blog. My online diary of somesort.
Even politicians can blog bout their opinion. Heard of blogging freedom? If you dont like, create you own blog and diss me. Furthermore, no names are mentioned. Not gonna pollute my beloved blog with such names.

Today is my first time seeing a pseudo-lawyer (albeit not his business - not in our group, not even our batch but talked like he has YEARS of experience and he is only a "close" friend) in action.

I have no friends to talk to, everyone boycott me, although not directly but from their facial expression, I can feel it. sob sob *please sense the SARCASM*

Freaking childish rite? "villain" actress have to involve a lecturer cause she knows she will end up dead, talking to us *i will personally pull her hair, not because i am uncivilised but because she's a pain in the ass* I thought I was gonna have an outburst there but LOL, other members were more boiling hot than me. * pat on the back for myself for controlling my anger*

I was apparently being biased towards the 2 accused people cos I have been standing on their side and not saying anything pleasant to her ears but i'm s000 sorrie hor *sarcasm again*, they are my friends while you are nothing. And please, I do have a BRAIN to think for my own. I KNOW what is right or wrong or in this case, downright RUBBISH.

I did not say much cos firstly, once you involve a lecturer in such a personal matter *laughing stock man, even primary school kids dont do that*, it has been a bias already. Secondly, we will never know what the lecturer will do in the exams, and wouldn't wanna be a target in exams.

She says we ( the other group members were never involve). We are very much involved cos we were accused of boycotting/bullying her, although not directly but apparently she feels it, she sense it from our facial expression and she is very sad bout it. YO B*TCH. Now you even wanna control our freedom of speech is it? Seriously, how can 9 others be at fault when you yourself feels pitiful bout youself, using this trick to gain sympathy from the male slut. *I am amazed by my own anger*

Like I said, how can people not see the wolf disguised as a sheep? As we all predicted earlier on, she teared while talking bout her sad story. Oh man, I wish I have tears too, tears of frustration and anger but I guess the boiling temperature in me has boiled the tears dry.

I am partially mad cos I was not able to stand up for my friends although they've been wronged but I am glad that the lecturer has sense to know what's going on. The lecturer said she-devil can't force us to like her. So true.

The whole "meeting" was apparently to solve her issues. Yes man. We have to tolerate her, show her kindness and love, understand her financial situations and her stresses, include her in our conversations cos WE made her unable to study. Only one word to describe my feelings: WOW!

The problems, all the accusations was not solve cos we were not there to point fingers but to make her feel better and understand her situation. Awww....

I dont know what the other group members will think or will do but I am already treating her "good" by NOT acknowledging her presence. Force me, bite me but she can kiss my sorry ass man! Want me to be her friend? Nah *puuuuuuuuttttt* but.. she is afterall in my group, *puppy eyes* I will answer her if she ask any questionS regarding study matters. Have to tell her though, she needs to pay me for my expressions. It's not free. Oh wait, then again, I might be called up by the lecturer.. Hmmmm...

Then again, I do not wanna hold a grudge on her. Will only make myself suffer. In the end, I know, we know. That's what matters.

I had an intense headache after the meeting. Thot I was gonna faint due to raised intracranial pressure!. So much anger!!

p.s: i have a secret. ask me personally n I will tell you. but shhh.. dont tell any one k. (:

Shit happens

2009-07-28T23:42:00.003+08:00

Today is not like any other day. Today is a super-sueh, unlucky day!
T________T

Started from last nite, wanted to take a short nap for an hour (9pm). Even asked my bro to wake me up an hour later but the weakling me decided to sleep another 10minutes without turning on the alarm and consequently, slept for 10 continuous hours. Such a klutz and lazy ass.

Then in the morning, thanks to my overconfidence, my friend received a love-letter from the traffic police because he parked on the motorbike lots. Other cars did that normally. SERIOUSLY, who gives a parking ticket IN THE BLOODY HOSPITAL compound? Shhessh. Furthermore, with the college sticker proudly displaying on the windscreen, couldn't the police cut some slacks?! AND the 3 to 4 cars next to his did not receive any parking ticket and we were only there for ONE hour. gRRRR!

After that, 2 more personal incidents happened. Make me feel like shit. So much turmoil inside. sad sad sad. It's not something that can be solve easily and kinda serious matter too.. sighhh

Then in the evening, me and 2 other friends went to the hospital to see cases. When we asked the doctors in the ward for cases, the bloody doctor, laughingly said I look MATURE. wtf. thank you SOO very much. dahla I am younger than her. *sticks out middle finger*

Plus, have to pay for my laundry (a freaking full suit saree with a few scarves) that cost RM 50++ cos I sent it for dry cleaning. Shit ass expensive. Arrgghh.
The next time when I wear saree, I'm gonna wash it the traditional way, which is by the river.

Lastly, when I got back today from random shopping, I realised there're a few scratches at the corner of my car's bumper, near the front tyre. T_____T Heart ache betul. I havent even celebrate it's 1st month anniversary! /BITTER
Can I find a black car to scrap the paint of it and patch it to my car?? HUHUHUHUHU..
My car is officially retired till further notice.

Ramblings

2009-07-15T23:10:00.004+08:00

The smell of the air after a night of rain was refreshing this morning. Thought it was gonna be a good day..

Had ophthalmology OPD at Peringgit Clinic today.
"TVB best villain actress" thought that she should remind us why she was given the award by presenting us (the other group members) with another drama. Apparently she paid someone in the group RM 100 monthly for transportation fee to Muar till she does not have enough money to spend on food.? O.o. Wht nonsense. Sigh. Although I do not share car with her but seriously, it does put a bad light on our names where else she received all the pity from others. It angers me that there're such people in the world where they act all "innocent and cute", with such screwd mind and heart but they do get what they want in life. A-N-Y-W-A-Y-S, it's not my concern as long as I do not hear rumours bout me "bullying" her or somesort.

*throwing it aside*

I feel so inadequate today. How to sit for the coming exams? Physically and mentally exhausted. And time is running out.
Pardon the panic mode here cos I jus found out the amount of shitloads I need to study and practice. T________T

Another chapter in life

2009-07-13T22:16:00.003+08:00

Instead of just posting pictures in FB, I think some photos are more worthy to be in the blog. With accompanied stories, the photos are not just to show-off but to tell you my feelings and what it really matters. ^^ Furthermore, this is family-related. So kinda personal too.

Having my own car (tho not my money) is indeed a new chapter in my life.

I've owned a scooter but many-hands had used it.
I've drive my parents' cars around but again, not my own.
I have to admit my family is not rich but for my parents' to give me a car, it was really touching *wipe away tears* especially after my dad told me that I do not have to asked around for people (more than 5) to send me home. Now, I can come back anytime I want *big wet puppy eyes*

Thanks Mum & Dad plus 2 munster bros. Love ya loads. <3

The parents' can get me any car, in fact for a person who is not working and studying medicine, they really spent a lot on me. But my parents' put safety first, above everything else and of course, within budget.. (:

Dad's criteria for a second-hand car is a woman driver, preferably only drive to work, do not travel long distance, no accidents and preferably, tai-tai material. HAHA where to find la? A simple Kelisa wont do, proton saga has poor quality and a normal Myvi lacks airbag apparently. hehe Hence, they got me a SE MYVI1.3.

It's not a huge car, not my dream car but that I can get it myself in the future! Who am I to complain wei? hehe I love my car! Now, *pray hard that I will maintain it well*

In fact, it has a name: Blackie or "or-kau"/Guinness stout. hahahha. *yes la, i am that lame*

Can you see that I am excited? *grins*

Say Hi! to BKK8329 (same no. as my mum's car)

Family and the cousins from UK

Make ur appointment for free joyride. hehe.

Following photos are from dinner celebration at Sheraton Hotel, Subang in conjunction of me getting a new car. haha

Slimy oysters. Yum yum!

Adorable dad and mua + gratined oyster with lemon herb sauce. Super yummy!

Cool bro, sexy mum and african bro

After the 12939x attempt to take a proper photo by adorable dad who keeps shaking his hand.

Poser shot. Thank you.

Chocolate fondue. How not to gain weight le? *huge sighhh*

Brought the UK cousins out shopping the next day. Super mischievious the younger one.

Elder bro, Chris

Little munster, Cameron. His British accent is so keyuuutte!

He literally put my hand into his mouth.

Dad: Why my daughter cannot grow up one? Only grow sideways. HAHAH

K la. That's all for now. More family outing soon.
I'm such a family person. hehe

p.s: btw, i think i chopped my hair too short. huhuhu.

The sick pacat

2009-07-01T19:36:00.008+08:00

This whole week has been a rollercoaster ride (cliche but true) for my body. No kidding.

Having low grade fever with chills and rigor. No fun.
Nauseated, vigorously shaking the cup, couldnt finish the wonderful lasagna in front of me. No fun at all.
Troubling people (Leeks n K) to send me to clinic. boohoo
The doctor in clinic didnt even examine me. hmm. and only treated me for my nausea. (antacids, omeprazole and charcoal pills given). Furthermore, she looked at me with disbelief. As though I omitted some important symptoms from her, just for fun. Yes, my symptoms were very vague: fever, chills, rigor, headache, started within 2 hours, nausea, no URTI.

On the way back from the clinic, I vomited at a random drain near the college. hahah. Funny part was, when I thought I was okay, I saw a pile of dog poop on the grass, and ran back to the drain to vomit. hahahaha

FInal diagnosis: no diagnosis. ruled out H1N1 tho. hehe. I havent been overseas, no contact with ppl with H1N1 k, no flu n cough either. *sorry to disappoint loads of ppl who wanna skip class*

The nite was bad. I was sweating madly. I felt all the heat in Sahara accumulated at the neck and face but at the same time was shivering. A/C was at 22 degrees. I'm usually not a whinny person when I am sick as long I am allowed to sleep but having my sleep being disturbed like that, made me absolutely cranky. I was only able to sleep at 3-4 am when the core temperature has decreased.

Woke up bout 10.30am, wanted to attend lectures but well, was not in a good condition for the earlier classes. Managed to go for the 11.30am class. I did not skip class for fun k. Valid reasons. hehe

Afternoon was good. Ate porridge for brunch and went for a movie ( night at the museum 2 was hilarious. guess who laugh the loudest? haha i think that's more like a rhetorical question rite?.>> me me *wave hands*) plus had teatime. *the happier times. the feeling of being able to enjoy after a night of hell is pure bliss k*

Should have known that that was the calm sea before the storm.. -___-"

Then hell started again. Felt feverish bout 7pm. Went out for dinner but couldn't finish my food again. Whole body weakness, but no fever. Wanted to do some studies for my short case end posting the next day (Wednesday) because Dr.NKS was coming in and he is more lenient plus I did badly for long case when Dr.Gauri came in. Sadly, as man propose, God dispose. I read only 2 pages in Leekie's house and couldn't take it anymore. Slept on her bed while she, Alicia and Sashi were thinking, in their respective abode bout my diagnosis.
Finally, Sashi thought of possible allergic reaction to my HPV vaccine and with that in mind, Leek's brought me to another panel clinic in the town at about 11pm. The doctor there was more professional. Upon seeing him itself, I felt better. Hehe. His manner of conduct and confidence shows his expertise, kinda remind me of the time when I visited the clinic during the younger days, I automatically felt better. My mum always teased me, saying, what a waste of medication money, should have just paid for the consultation fees. :)
Back to story proper, my temperature was 39.1 degrees (high grade) with myalgia (body weakness) but again no rash, URTI, UTI etc. He sent my blood for full blood count but only can get the report the next day. Apparently, if he calls means it's bad news and I have to be admitted for most probably dengue but if there's no call, means it's good news. He sent me home with paracetamols, metoclopramide and my MC slip.

Had to ask Leek's to messaged Alvin, the groupleader to postpone my short case to another possible day.

The night was not as bad as the first night but fever was there. Slept to 10am the next day. Groupmates called at 12 something, to asked me how am I? and asked to be included in the list of possible contacts if I do have H1N1. -____-!!!

Seriously I thought I was feeling better, no feverish, ate only porridge thanks to Leeks *mwah* and was in the room the bloody whole day! So, the thought of Japanese food was so tempting plus it was a friend, Beh's birthday. He treated for dinner, so kinda shy if we didnt attend the after party, which I sat and move minimally k. *angel's halo, big wet puppy eyes*

I did attend class the next day with a pulling sensaton on the periorbital areas radiating to the frontal area. The heat in Muar did not help at ALL. By afternoon, my headache had worsen plus we had 3 short cases plus 2 long cases to finish. All this time I was taking paracetamol like sweets i tell you!

As soon as I reached my room, I bathed, ate a slice of bread, swallowed another 2 panadol and slept. Yes slept. But in between the sleep, there's a minor break for gossips from my very salah gf. hehe And slept back again. So, in total I slept for 13 hours from 5 pm on Thursday evening till 6am. I am so SINFUL. I tried to force myself to wake up earlier the next day cos I'm having my said short case end-posting on this fateful Friday by the Dr-who-I-wanted-to-avoid-badly, Dr.Gauri (just my luck) and study whatever my gut feelings told me to study.

Instead, I woke up at 6am to cook Maggi curry cos I was damn hungryand was dreaming bout it probably from 10pm onwards. Who cooks maggi at 6am in the morning? huhuh. On the empty stomach, it doesn't taste nice at all. Huhuhuh I was drying my hair ala turban style and with my specs out to take water from the water dispenser this morning, so if anyone saw me at 6am at the corridor of girls' hostel, that was not a ghost of any kind.

Thank God, my end posting went quite well and headache has decreased *fingers crossed*

I dunno where and what went wrong. Only God knows and God will heal. Amen :)

...

2009-06-26T01:01:00.009+08:00

I like the spontaneity; the last minute sleep over, the impulsive eating spree, the quota moments
I like how we can hangout and joke, without gossiping bout others
I like how you worry so much bout how I feel or dislike seeing me disappointed, when I cant watch Transformers though I said it was ok, you insisted on us watching it and we did (the 12.00am - midnight movie) even though you have night posting the next day (a very long day indeed).
I like how you try to fulfill my crave for starbucks even though you can't concentrate studying in Starbucks cos all you can think is shopping
I like our swimming time, where we can joke, laugh and hog the pool like rich tai-tais.
I like you spontaneous, outmost random comments. That shows how mysterious and imaginative your mind works.

Coming back from supper one day, 1.59 am, while driving into the campus
Leech: Eh, why the guard house so dark one? The lights are not on. The gate is wide open and guard no where to be seen.
Leeky: *spontaneously* Usually in horror movies, means all the guards die already *straight face*
Leech: o.O okaaayyyy... and then the 2 bimbos are killed soon after... *kwa kwa*

Thank you, my fren

Seed t-shirt which we both like and my new phone *cough cough*

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Sometimes when I am confused of my own feelings, when I am unable to stand up for myself, the person who I can turn for advice is you, my big sis! Though I dont always follow it cos I'm not that brave, but I am glad that I can always hear your opinion.
Deep down, I feel we have an unexplainable bond and I know that I can always turn to you when I'm in need of help and I hope I can also do the same for you.
Be it, the anger outburst you show when I am bullied or the boisterous laughter when I tell you a joke, your expressions and emotions are always 100% real and it never ceased to amuse me.
There are times when I feel that you are the big sis but other times, you can be such a little girl especially when you are hungry or tired. That makes you quite predictable I guess. :)
Meeting you in India is one of my many blessings. My first friend, first roommate, first pillar of strength, first advisor, housemate, neighbour and kaki clubbing hehe Oh! and also hairdresser *she cuts my fringe in India* hehe
We (me, you, Leek's) gotta be the most chirpy girls in the entire class, when it comes to a "certain" friend of ours.

Thanks for being my fren

Christmas party in Manipal, 2007

After Barcelona, tipsy but otherwise ok. :)

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Encik Sashi, regarding my supposedly "racist" jokes, you know I'm only joking rite? *not* LOL!
Your sensible advice, the ever realistic macha! has been loads of help, your responsibleness keeps our house in Manipal in order, your looks and stare kept me and Alicia save from strangers ^^ and also for carrying my 19283746584kg bag up Gunung Ledang while I can take my own sweet time to climb and somemore dare to asked you to walk faster hehe, and for supporting and encouraging me as always! I am forever grateful! hehe

Nearly died in Gunung Ledang. Hands and legs were wobbly but look at my friend with 2 bags walking beside. HAHA awww.!

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Then there's this friend, a friend who trust me even though we do not always hang out now but I want her (Gayathri) to know that her actions and words do make a difference.
There's once when I borrowed her car when she went back home to Penang, and the other guys messaged her, lied to her that I crashed her car. She did not call or message me right away to question me. Instead, I found out from the guys what they did and messaged her that her car is safe. She replied by saying she knows they are lying and didnt bother bout them. At that moment I was pissed at the guys cos this type of incident is not a joke. But I am glad to know the level of trust that she has on me and of course, there's also my role to play as a responsible driver.

In the bathtub at A Famosa during Alicia's bday party

Someone told me that hanging out with friends should be effortless... She, Chandan, Dinesh and Baveen are fine example of those kind of friends. ^^
Same goes to the saying that, people will forget what you said, what you did but will never forget how you made them feel.

Langkawi 03/09

Batman wannabe and cigar-smoking mafia in Langkawi

Ju-on haunting sleeping beauty, Bav.!
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There's also this particular friend who can make me laugh with his antics. His funny -sharp-gravity-defying hair hair and his muka red-tomato especially after drinking only one cup of beer, are ever entertaining. Over the years, I am proud that his alcohol tolerance has increase significantly. Now, he knows what happened the whole night without falling asleep after a drink. LOL!
He is one friend who need no words to understand what has happen. I know he is a silent friend who will be there when I need help, macam baja hitam. HAHA! Not to mention, he is one of my silent readers haha *Nah. take that ;P*
I remember when I lost my camera the second time, during North India trip and was damn sad, he loaned me his camera. I was really touched cos I jus lost mine and am sad and angry over my carelessness. Though his reason was weird, *he said since I lost my camera, I will definitely take extra precautions and extra care over his camera. Cheh* but that's his way I guess. hehe

He has tendency to recommend food with much enthusiasm but takut others will say it's overrated. hohoho

His comrades are also not to be forgotten. 3 musketeers as i call them *slumdog millionaire?* never fail to laugh at my lame jokes. Yes, muka maintain but spread my jokes to everyone and occasionally ask me to perform in front of others. -_-" I dunno how much of a friend I am to them *hard to keep up u know. hehe* but I definitely regard them as friend. I might not be there for them when in trouble * respective girlfriends duty :) * but at least happie times can be share rite? ^^

mr.muka maintain no 1. subclinical parkisonism *jk jk*
he does laugh *chuckles*

Budak kecik who always call me fei-mui. Sheesh! but luckily i am ho-ngoi. *cantonese*

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My pseudo-brother. Since Manipal days, he has been taking care of me like a little sis. Though he make sme worry most of the time but he is someone who I can talk and joke albeit lots of craziness. Hehe
For someone who is 1/2 chinese (sino-kadazan), he is quite racist towards his own race and always making fun of my rabbit sign *he calls it the china-sign V^-^v*
He is never judgmental and always accommodating towards my demands. A friend who is just a phone call away. Thanks loads pseudo ;)

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There's also my A1 groupmates, people who are same postings with me for erm, 3 semesters. We have our disagreements but plenty of fun times too. hehe the after class tea time and watching the daily dramas by a "certain" someone. Glad to be in the same group with u guys =)

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I'm neither emo nor dying anytime soon btw. Jus in case you r thinking why the sudden post. ^.^
I was thinking why wait when I wanna express my gratitude to people whom I care?
and for the fact that I am skipping class tomorrow makes me happie too. haha
Typing this post brought back so much memories. :)

p.s: will update on this list soon. hehe. *updated*
p.p.s: not that i'm perasan but... you can send in your request for me to write bout you. Let me squeeze my head on what we both share together ^^

p.p.ps: gTLiers- our friendship is irreplaceable k. more like sisterhood man. missing the crazee bunch! do you hear me? hehe
mwah! *big fat juicy kiss*

missing members: emmie, cheryl, li yee and meikuen

For fun

2009-06-21T02:03:00.007+08:00

Some random stuff that make me happie. I'll throw in some comments. ^^ Ripped it from facebook (:
Shades of purple are my picks.
Red highlights are comments I can't help not commenting about .. hehe

*Disclaimer notes: These are purely my own thoughts. You are entitled to feel free to counter them or agree to it. =P*

1. Falling in love. *one day*

2. Laughing so hard your face hurts. esp when friends say the most random stuff at the weirdest moment, telling a joke in a matter-of-fact way, with a straight face but usually when I laugh, the abdomen hurts more than the face. Face just becomes numb. I admit that I laugh at nearly every joke *except sick perverted ones. absolute put off* but every laughing moments are sincere. =D

Leeky wins the prestigious award of always making me laugh out loud. Habisla my image in the public. T.T

*note to self: close mouth with hand when laughing, laughter should only last for 5 seconds and below 10 db.*

3. A hot shower.

4. No lines at the supermarket.

5. A special glance. tell me who wouldn't feel happy for a special glance from someone, like a crush? *twirls hair*

6. Getting mail. When I was in India, my family members and Shwus used to send me cards. I am really happie when I recieved those snail mails. The cards were placed at the wall beside the mirror, so that I can see them everyday before I go out.

7. Taking a drive on a pretty road. with good scenery, bunch of friends and great music. a road trip! =)

8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio. dont have to be the latest song *cos radiostations tend to butcher it after repeating for umpteen times* but more like, the right song for the mood at the unexpected moment.

9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside. lying on bed is a good idea although i can't guarantee that i'll be awake, listening to the rain. harharhar

10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.

11. Chocolate milkshake (vanilla or strawberry).

12. A bubble bath. reliving the childhood days. hehe.When I was 8y/o, I used to make my own "swimming pool" cos my house dont have a bath tub, by stuffing the drainage holes on the shower floor with plastic bag and using a pail filled with water for weights on the plastic bags. Then, I'll filled the shower area (the common square area with 5 cm high divider) with water.

13. Giggling. esp while gossiping about someone you dont like *bitchy mode*

14. A good conversation. anytime, be it, general issues, general knowledge, dreams, future plans, random issues

15 The beach I LOVE the beach, sea, sea creatures. I once slept on the hammock by the beach, under a canopy of trees with layers of sunblock for 3 hours and ended up, tanned, like a freaking Indonesian maid. Sigh. but i still love the beach. =)

16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.

17. Laughing at yourself. especially after embarassing myself. all the time. hahaha

18. Looking into their eyes and knowing they Love you

19 Midnight phone calls that last for hours. This used to happen in Manipal when the intercom between hostel rooms was free. Alicia used to kick me out of the room cos I disturbed her sleep by laughing so loud. I had to talk in the halfway with a freaking long telephone connection wire. hehe no thanks to steven tan. then he goes scaring me with his cerita hantu.

20. Running through sprinklers. *acting movie meh?*

21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all. *siao*

22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful. I like. come, tell me more often. LOL! *unsincere comments will result in YOU getting an unscratchable, unreachable itch like at the spine area, middle ear etc*

23. Laughing at an inside joke with FRIENDS LOL! girls will be girls. =) enough said.

25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you. this gesture will last me the whole day or through tough times. awwww!

26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep. Ultimate satisfaction! *nods head profusely*

27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).

28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones. spending time with old friends is good but making new friends can be tiring and scary especially making a good first impression, creating conversation, afraid of being judged, afraid of looking stupid etc. Sometimes, we humans are too comfortable in our own zone. hehe

29. Playing with a new puppy or kitten. *playin is one thing. commitment is another. i absolutely detest people who act all lovey dovey with puppies or kittens but not towards the grown-up version*

30. Having someone play with your hair.

31. Sweet dreams. I was once told that we dream because we want it to happen in the real life leading to subconsciously picturing the event in our sleep. Dunno how true is the story but I am sometimes like that. which leads to No.17.

32. Hot chocolate. yummy!! escpecially Cadbury! I am easily bribe. *shameless*

33. Road trips with friends. no. 7!

34. Swinging on swings.

35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.

36. Making chocolate chip cookies. *only in the toilet* wah. so crude. hehe

37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies. *evil friends who want me to gain weight*

38 Holding hands with someone you care about. * i cant hold hands cos i have sweaty palms. the day when someone is willing to hold my hand is the day I meet my soulmate. wtf. hahahaha*

39 Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.

40. Watching the _expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.

41. Watching the sunrise. Though i prefer sunset. The colours of the clouds during sunset can be mind-blowing at times!

42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day. *should be. but knowing a long day ahead can be depressing tho*

43. Knowing that somebody misses you. I know for sure my family misses me a lot. *big teary eyes*

44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply. A hug is very therapeautic, be it being a giver or recipient.

45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think. then only I'll know who will trust me and stand by me. ^^

A note from Cindy Lim

Natural Highs Please make sure you forward this back to me . . . You'll see why at the end. Think about them one at a time before going on to the next one. It Does Make You Feel Good, especially #45. 1. Falling in love. 2. Laughing so hard your face hurts. 3. A hot shower. 4. No lines at the supermarket. 5. A special glance. 6. Getting mail. 7. Taking a drive on a pretty road. 8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio. 9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside. 10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer. 11. Chocolate milkshake (vanilla or strawberry). 12. A bubble bath. 13. Giggling. 14. A good conversation. 15 The beach 16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter. 17. Laughing at yourself. 18. Looking into their eyes and knowing they Love you 19 Midnight phone calls that last for hours. 20. Running through sprinklers. 21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all. 22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful. 23. Laughing at an inside joke with FRIENDS 25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you. 26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep. 27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner). 28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones. 29. Playing with a new puppy or kitten. 30. Having someone play with your hair. 31. Sweet dreams. 32. Hot chocolate. 33. Road trips with friends. 34. Swinging on swings. 35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger. 36. Making chocolate chip cookies. 37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies. 38 Holding hands with someone you care about. 39 Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change. 40. Watching the _expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you. 41. Watching the sunrise. 42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day. 43. Knowing that somebody misses you. 44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply. 45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think. Pass on These Natural Highs to at Least 7 People in the Next Half Hour and Something Fantastic Will Happen to You in the Next Few Hours. Be sure to send it back to the person who sent it to you! Lord, keep Your arm around my shoulder and Your hand over my mouth

<3 talk

2009-06-14T00:26:00.005+08:00

Something, or rather someone has been lingering in my head for the longest time...
All the what ifs, and what nots..
Knowing that there's no possibility, why does the heart (with all the wrong feelings) torturing the mind which affects the soul?
Such a sad state to be in.

But fret not, *convincing myself* I will sleep it off! and wake up to a new day with a huge grin on my face *probably not. more like a huge sigh.. haihhh* and waits patiently :)

Thank God, there's a place like home: a place to escape

Damn emo sial. must be the hot weather.

you know what?

2009-06-10T00:48:00.004+08:00

It's so hard telling people this. Harder to make them understand.

Sometimes when I smile, I am actually saving whatever dignity I have..

Why are people so judgmental and critical towards me? ... are really beyond my understanding..
Do you really know me, to even pass me those comments? What rights do you have for making me a joke for your own sadistic purpose? How dare you pass comments without thinking of my feelings?

There's difference between friendly jokes and pull-you-down-to-make-me-happy kind of jokes.

Is it because I am too nice, too soft, easily bullied or I have the tidak-apa-attitude?

In those situations, what am I supposed to do when my feelings are compromised? Be it publicly humiliated or privately confronted.
...Laugh it off, as usual and havin the cycles repeat?
...Confront, saying, "I dont like it", but afraid of sounding too harsh
... or easiest way, act blur and ignore those comments.

I know the comments are true. but whatever reason, you have no rights in making me feel this way.
Partially my fault for not standing up for myself. Sigh.
But like I said, if the comments are true, how do one defend oneself?
Double sigh.
It's personal attack k.. huhuh. and I am hurt.

p.s: jus to be fair, I know I make fun of others also but my jokes are in general. Never personal attack. and of course I know the other person well enough to make fun of.
p.p.s: think of happy thoughts. happie thots. :)
p.p.p.s: feels better now. don need sympathy. just venting out. mwah!

i <3 you

2009-05-02T14:25:00.007+08:00

so leech and i had a conversation about ppl who were or will be (ahem!) in our past. we talked about what was, what could have been to where we are right now. i was telling her about how i keep myself updated with a particular xx when the conversation came to this...

leech: ohh, he use facebook?
me: yeahh, has always been.
leech: mm, can i add him?
me: errr, why ah?
leech: so that i can message him and say JERKKKK!!

at this point i started laughing really hard...

me: mm, then can i add yy?
leech: can la! i think he knows you cause i tell him about you sometimes.
me: good! then i can message him as well and say ASSHOLE!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
so sweeeeeeet! i love you amanda lai lee chen! (:

Spotted

2009-05-02T00:06:00.006+08:00

Stonehenge

of Malaysia seen in Kuala Selangor ;)

a form of art in the most random place. beats me who did it. happen to take this pic while stopping at the traffic light

it just keeps getting better

2009-04-24T20:37:00.003+08:00

with each passing day, and i don't know if i like the way things are heading because the better it gets, the more afraid i am. sometimes i wonder if it's all in my head, but when you look at me the way you look at me and when you say those things you say to me, it just makes me think that you feel it too.

i wish that this does not have to come to an end, but we both know it's not possible and there will be no end to this.

so maybe, just maybe, you should stop being so nice to me and stop looking at me like you do, then maybe, just maybe, this feeling will go away, someday....

..flames to dust, lovers to friends, why do all good things come to an end..

Shoutout

2009-04-21T21:19:00.003+08:00

Nothin beats good company =)
Thanks buddies. U guys know who you are.
I am glad for having gfs, cos without saying anything, they can feel the same emotions.
I am also glad for being a girl. Cos every girl has the license to bi**h. *evil smirk*

I'm not saying this on the spur of the moment but I really appreciate your love and concern.

No matter how gloomy the world is...
I still believe the best is yet to come..

p.s: To think that at the age of 22+, I am still clouded by adolescent problems. Sigh. Haha. So sien!

the magical corridor

2009-04-16T22:50:00.020+08:00

as i push open the door, i caught a glimpse of your face. i sigh loud enough for you to hear me and then just to let the door go.
you stand there, holding the door open with your body, at the same time blocking my way, looking at me the way you always do.
we stand there for a while not saying anything. when the silence became unbearable, i look at you with a smile and say, "hie!"
but you don't move. you just have the same look plastered to your face, seemingly enjoying the moment.
annoyed, i frown and say, "this is me being nice here!" you remain silent but broke into laughter after a while.
you then make way for me to pass through and proceed to walk away.
right before you hit the corner, you turn to me and say loud enough for me to hear, "you know, sometimes you're just too sweet for me."

likewise, babe! likewise! (:

i can't keep my hands off the cookie jar

2009-04-12T21:11:00.006+08:00

i can't even bring myself to justify the kind of things that goes through my mind when you look at me the way you look at me.

why does it feel so damn right when deep down inside, i know it's all wrong?

SIGH!

Moving on

2009-03-24T21:24:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I wish my life is a movie,
I can pause, rewind and forward or just DELETE,
when ever I want or need to.

But now, I just want to move on.
I'm not going to put myself in those situations again. But then again, those situations contributed to the dramas in my life. /crazy
Now, I know I deserve someone better. Yeap! (:
I need to learn how to love myself and put my feelings first.
I need to trust my instinct and most of all, need to take a stand.!

And for the very last time, I've never been in love nor have a bf.
Yes, LOL all you want but I'm just gonna wait for my prince to come.. /shy

No matter what you believe it's true about my life, it's just your bloody assumptions. Unless you clarify with me.

Having say all that, good luck to me and you, my fren!

Chapter close (:

Lazy afternoon

2009-03-18T17:59:00.004+08:00

Today i spent the whole afternoon at Popular Bookstore, reading random general interest books like, 501 cities to visit *not bad, i've visited most of india cities*, When Venus and Mars collide, World's Famous true love stories, Bart Simpson's guide to life etc.

As you can see, I have weird choice of book selections. I've read literatures, non fictions, fictions and heard how others talked bout famous writers and their works and not joining the conversation cos I have not read? but I have nothing to be ashamed of cos that's my interest (: Oh, I like to read autobiographies too but those books need a longer time, understanding and more patience to read. Sometimes, I think my brothers and dad influence my choice of reading cos I'm also fascinated with World War books. They have a whole collection of it including reproduced newspaper cuttings and pamphlets. It's especially fun if I can join in their conversation bout war and how I can also chip in some random information. hehe

So yeah, it's been a long time since I can spend a wonderful day reading books (not medical related) which I'll probably only read once and do not need to pay through my arse (_I_)

^-^V

p.s: truth is there was not much thing to shop. so boring selection of shoes and clothes. bah~

Road trip!

2009-03-11T02:23:00.003+08:00

*As of 3.00am, Wednesday morning*

Current temperature: HOT!

Current mood: Relax with a bit of palpitations due to the accumulated caffeine from the teh-c(b/fast) + kopi-peng (lunch) + iced latte (dinner)

Current location: Sungai Petani, Nick Ho's house, living room

Current friends (Sashi, Ho, Andrew) doing: Playing chinese chess. Mwhahaha!

Not a bad holiday at all. considering it's last minute planning and seriously, the weather is freaking hot. We took our own sweet time starting from Sashi picking me up from Klang, proceeding to Saujana to pick princess Andrew and Nick, then off for breakfast nearby.

Journey started bout 10.30am under the canopy of clear sky towards Ipoh! Land of Hor Fun? Chicken rice? hehe to pick Sohnam and meet up with Avreena. We decided to wait for Sohnam at Ipoh's Jusco shopping complex whixh I find eerily similar to the one in Klang. So not interesting~ Had roti bakar for lunch, though the heart craved for hor fun but the stomach says no~ Fret not, there's always good food in Penang as i psychoed myself *satisfied face*

In Penang, we stopped at Queensbay mall for it's free air-cond while waiting for Gayathri and Gillian and then proceeded to our apartment where we made a reservation for Wednesday nite. After the long traveling hours, we adjourned to our next makan destination at Northam Foodcourt. As much as I wanted to eat Penang food, I found myself ordering this delicious looking German sausage meal! Hahah. Defeated the purpose of coming to Penang. I ate fried oyster tho and it made me swore i'm not eating second class fried oyster in Malacca anymore! *no la, joking only. in desperate conditions, anything will do*

After dinner, we walked along Gurney drive for awhile. It was low tide and the water receeded way back till bout 500m from the sidewalk. The full moon was peeping through few fluffy clouds and its light just shone directly on the receeded sea. It was indeed a beautiful sight. One scene which I've not seen for a very long time. The only bad thing was the hot, still air which "forced" us to seek refuge in the air-conditioned Gurney plaza, which I ended up buying a pair of shoes. After temptations from 3 shopping malls, I am NOT going home empty handed *such a wussy!*

A tad bit of disappointment cos we couldn't find durian. huhu. was expecting so much tho. While searching for durians, we stubled across the many hawker stores along McAllister Road and ate TongYuen for supper. Kinda weird for a supper choice but hey, we've been kinda random since the journey started~

and any thoughts of dieting goes poof in the air. Firstly, after climbing Mount Ledang, I replenished my energy by eating like 7 times a day. Yes, i know it's shit loads but I was constantly hungry k! And Penang, being the island of heavenly food isn't helping at all. Huhuh~

had supper like 2 hours ago. Drank milo only tho. So much liquids inside!

Speaking of Mount Ledang, yes peeps, I've conquered Mount Ledang, formerly known as Mount Ophir in Johor, the 6th toughest in Malaysia k! *Gunung Kinabalu is the 9th toughest. Go figure*

more laters as the journey n story continues!

going to play cards now. buhbye!

Some love pls?

2009-03-02T01:10:00.002+08:00

Nothin I say or do can bring justice to my actions. I know I'm wrong but we all have our drunk moments, do we?

I hate the feeling of not remembering anything
Hate the consequences that follow (try vomiting 10x and bile juice for a change)
Hate being unduly judged
Hate hurting others with my actions

Sigh.
I wanna defend myself but only can admit defeat
I've learned my lessons but why do I feel more like a victim than a perpetrator?
I've so much to say, so much emotions inside but no one to share it

I just wanna go home soon. To my family who loves me no matter what happens, who will support me though i did wrong, for they trust my character and trust that I will change for a better. They are more concern of my well being than themselves. I guess that's unconditional love.

Today, I felt lonely.

I'm glad that I was able to talk to the family while they were having dinner. Bro said dad is waiting for me to go home for Korean food. Mum asked me to get a pair of shoes for my hiking trip..

.... sigh, tonight will be another teary night.

-non-

2009-02-16T20:39:00.007+08:00

They say no reasons are needed when you love someone..

And here I am, having a thousand and one reasons NOT to love someone.

Heck, I dont even know how love feels like. It's more like a taboo word.

The truth is ... we are so similar that we are not compatible.?
I can really be myself, be so comfortable but when two stubborn people get together with minimal tolerance or acceptance and so much expectations, the pressures built up, suppressed inside but in the end, there's really nothin to be done.
Arguments over arguments and we still end up the same...

Call me evil, childish, criticize me or hate me all you want *i even hate myself* but the truth is, sorry, we can only be ....

best friends.

p.s: btw, i dont appreciate friends who pushes me when i say i am not attached. if i am, i will announced k? so stop making fun. back off. how old are you already? blah~

Music to my ears

2008-12-31T02:55:00.004+08:00

It's been a long time since I really like a Mandarin song..
This song is nice.
So does the drama. =)

Shu Yu, Fish Leong

p.s: I'm unsure bout the lyrics tho.. huhuh.. somethin bout belonging?

Backlog

2008-12-29T01:36:00.005+08:00

My birthday (21/12/08, Sunday)

Photos are up on Facebook but I wanna blog bout my thoughts and feelings bout it.
To me, honestly, this year birthday is more meaningful than any other year *probably cos it's the clearest? hehe*.

Let me begin with the week leading to my b'day.
The week before was really stressful. I had my night postings where I need to spend 4 full days in Muar (except Tuesday, lecture classes in campus) and sleepover for 2 nites in the hostel provided.The schedule was:-

8am-12pm In the wards, clerk case, awaits arrival of teacher, bedside teaching. (11 members)
2pm-4pm Wardwork: supposed to go to the wards and find things to do (only 5 who are doing nite postings stayed back)
6pm-11pm Night posting in Accident & Emergency unit

Muar is about 45 minutes (by car), 1 hour (by bus) from Melaka town. Travelling is not fun.

I have no problem staying over doing my night postings, no problem staying alone in a double bed room, if not for the other stresses.

Firstly, 4 topics of surgery for VIVA ( a one-on-one Q&A session with the lecturer) for my group was postponed to the following week (means 4 topics for the next week plus this week's 4 topics plus question regarding nght postings) due to unforeseen circumstances. Fine. Can study later on, so I thought.

Secondly, the same week, on Saturday is exam for another 9 topics for surgery. Structure of questions is unknown. Wanted to study so badly but by the end of night postings and washing up, roughly 12am, I read few lines and started feeling real sleepy. Thought I could study on the bed *bad idea, as usual* but ended up sleeping and waking up a 3am to off the freaking lights.

Thirdly, my family was supposed to come down on the weekends to see me perform in church choir in conjunction with Christmas celebration but sadly, my grandma had Chikungunya and was hospitalized. It really breaks my heart to hear that my grandma was unable to eat, feeling lethargic and malaise and was finally hospitalized. I can only assure my family that she'll be alright with the IV drips and supportive treatment.

Fourthly, my very "considerate" "fren" had to remind me that she is attending a Xmas party organised by another fren by asking me what I'm buying for the gift exchange programme, although she darn knows that I have night postings, which means I'm staying over in Muar. She continued to have the chit to say that I'm gonna miss out on a lot of fun. Bloody hell. Tell me, how to answer her back?? I just smiled and swallowed my anger.

Fifth, for the minor operations on Thursday morning, I had to enquire bout the location, talked to the staff nurse bout the number of students allowed, placed to change etc but not appreciated as usual. Group leaders are the worse job ever. Name only sounds nice but in fact doing all the donkey job and when problem arises, all fingers pointed to the group leader or when dissatisfaction arises, group leader only gets the shit. Seriously, I do not have the patience to be a group leader. I am definitely a person who cannot tolerate peoples shit. I can have outburst of anger if it wasn't for the breathing technique (count 1-10) hahaha. That's an entire topic altogether. SO, 11 of us went to the OT at 9am, got ready, enthusiastically waited for the MO to arrive to perform the procedures, be it, rubber banding for patients with hemorrhoids/piles or colonoscopy or excision of breast lump but we "patiently" waited till 11.15am, only it started. Being the group leader, I naturally let the others go before me, so that everyone gets their chance to watch exciting procedures and when it was my turn, being the last, about 12pm, I was darn tired, hungry, angry and my case have to be a 8years old boy here for excision of lump on the forehead. He was crying, wailing and moving all his limbs in resistance. It only delays the procedure further and by the end of the procedure, the lump was fat tissue measuring less than 1cm but looks big due to his underlying bony structure on the forehead. I felt like screaming on top of my lungs but then again, I took a deep breath and convinced myself that it's OKKkk! I'll have my chance the next time *sigh, so sad*

Sixth, no interesting cases to see in A&E department. All the hoo-haa about it being the most exciting department is only a myth. Hahah. I guess it's bout luck to see interesting cases. Furthermore, no case should be a good sign of people being less involved in accidents or sick. Then again, sigh, 4 days spent seeing cases like fever, dislocation of elbow, more fever cases, fracture of femur, fall, giddiness etc. And on the last day of my posting, those who were from other posting was given the chance to perform ECG on patients when they do not even know how to do it. Arggh! I guess it's partially my fault not being thick-skinned to ask to do it cos I didn't know we can do that.! The frustrations. It happened before when another girl tricked the staff nurse to let her perform ECG on patient without knowing anything. Arggh! But then again, those are people who can go far.. SIGGGH!

Dramatic? yes and I also tend to attract dramatic/emo people.

Nevertheless, I told myself on Friday nite that after all this shit, it will definitely be fine on the weekends. X)
True to it, grandma is all well again in time for family to come down on my birthday..
And my best friend, Lester managed to organised a dinner party for me. Those attended are indeed my closer friends in Malacca. And those who did not attend, though invited, made the effort to meet up later.
Though it's a smaller group compared to the previous parties I had, but I am very contented having closer friends, enjoying each other company, chatting and laughing at lame jokes. I hope it's not a sign of increasing in age. Hehe.
After dinner, we adjourned to Dinesh's house for a round of drink. Jack Daniels is so much better than tequila *stares at Andrew*
Party ended bout 3am, slept over (cos curfew is from 1am-5am) and went back to hostel bout 7.30am, just enough of time to get ready for Sunday service. Hehe

Then the family came down after church service and took them to eat dimsum, do touristy stuff and went shopping as my birthday gift? haha but i shopped every weekend.. hmm.. anyways, after that, we went for dinner and a drink at Geographer's. I am not a alcoholic k, as insisted by most of my drunkard friends. hehe

It's been 3 years since I celebrated my birthday with my family. This time the feeling is special, cos my brothers have grown up (more mature to a certain extent though still very lame) and parents are more liberal. We can joke bout anything be it, dirty jokes or very lame jokes (Lame jokes are a bit of problem. Mom will laugh at it but we, the siblings, know that she laughed for a different reason and dad will only laugh 10minutes later when he get the question? by that time, we'll have to explain the answer ) I know they love me very much, even though at times I act as though I'm the youngest in the family (i call my younger bro as Kor) or for accepting Christ (not that it's a crime but it's not an easy thing for the parent) and I get the best of everything.. *tears*

I received wishes and smses from friends who I've not seen for quite sometime or from people who I did not expect to remember. Closest friends and bestie from Australia also sent their love ^-^. Seriously, it's the thoughts that count...
Unlike someone I know, who I organised her birthday party, did not even bother to say anything. @$%&*% Watever la k?! *yes, the same insensitive person who asked bout d xmas party and who i blogged earlier as friends? maybe not*
I hate to have this grudge on her, which made me more judgemental of her. I also wish to get on with life and just let her be. I really dont know why she affects me so much. Maybe I want to give her a piece of my mind but i'm just too lazy. *whatever hand motion* I wish her all the best in life. I'm moving on. And i have better friends who really care and worth my time.

Another event that made me happy was my church members who took the initiative a week earlier to arrange a date for my birthday celebration though i had to postponed it twice and they were willing to accommodate to my timing. Aww.. X)

Arigato, thank you, once again. You guys know who you are. =)

p.s: This does not mean that those who didnt wish me, celebrate with me or give anything is less than a friend. You get what i mean rite? I'm not being calculative whatsoever. It's just how all these made me feel.. ^-^ I AM entitled to how i feel rite?

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-24T19:35:00.001+08:00

Wishing all my readers a very Merry Christmas and God Bless ya!

Small talk

2008-12-01T23:03:00.002+08:00

Finding kakis for dinner one night,

Me: Eh wanna go for dinner?
Mr. Santa Ho: With who else?
Me: Edward and me. He dont eat kan? I need ppl to eat with me.
Mr. Santa Ho: Err...

*btw, edward is ed cullen from Twilight.. *swoon*

Sometimes I forget that I'm over the teenage years.. ouch...

One of those rumblings

2008-11-26T00:31:00.006+08:00

Seriously, 24 hours is just not enough.
Doubling it will be nice.
Another 24 hours just for sleeping.
But when I actually have the extra time, it is spend on everything else.... except sleeping..
Sometimes I am a little sadistic. I like to push my body to the limit and stretch my time and .. I enjoy it.. All those last minute work etc.
I really deserve feeling fatigue..

I have so much work to do, all the willpower to do it but lack the physical strength. Yomeishu? Chicken essence perhaps? Nah. Good ol' sleep should do the trick... or a good massage?
I know some will digress with the fact of spending time sleeping cos it's such a waste of time. Oh shaddup hypocrites. It's not cool proclaiming such "facts" and keep your opinion to yourself k? thx.

end

P.s:
Apanda: Exert too much (not in anyway talking to XYZ)
XYZ: *passes by* Overexert

Apanda: *thinks to self* ....

It's Saturday~

2008-11-08T17:48:00.002+08:00

After the morning lecture class today, 6 of us kiddies-wannabe went for a hearty dimsum breakfast and proceed to watch a movie that is definitely worth the money and time.. compared to the one below (-_-)

I like to move it, move it. She like to move it, move it.....!
Farewell Pansies!
Thank you freaks!
...
...

Madagascar 2!!

I laughed so hard that it feels as though I'm the only one in the cinema *blush*
Heck, i even started laughing before the movie started cos they were showing the trailer for an upcoming animation, Monsters VS Aliens. It's definitely on my to-watch list (which includes "Twilight")...

I just love watching animations production of Dreamworks, Pixar or Disney. They are always entertaining, inspiring *especially Pixars*, definitely funny *if you really get the jokes, especially from Dreamworks* and it brings out the inner child in me.. *la la la la*

In addition, watching animation in the cinema with so many kids around can be adorable at times, minus the annoying, whining, cry babies. For example, like today, there's a part where Alex the Lion was posing, out of nowhere, a little girl from the back said , "Mummy, I want the lion" in such a sweet tone.. I couldn't help giggling. So cute!~

It's kinda weird that certain parts of the movie, only our row laughed, cos I think the other patrons do not get the jokes.. you'll need to watch in the cinema to know it.. hehe

Well, I am deeply ashamed to admit that I teared a bit at the beginning of the movie .. watch it, and you'll know why... *now now, let's not be judgmental k? =)*

I give my Two thumbs up! 6^-^6

p.s: There's this idiotic man who sat behind of me in the cinema, was speaking in the phone real loud, about 3-4 times during the entire movie. Worse part was, every time he coughs (> 5 times), his fat knees will hit my chair. @#!%^@$^ I prayed to God for patience and calmness but definitely not power, cos I'll definitely CEKIK him!
At the end of the movie, when the lights were on, I turned around to see the stupid uneducated culprit, who is with his children. What a crappy man! But.. well, have to give him his due credits for accompanying his children to watch a freaking cartoon *in his opinion*, on a Saturday afternoon. =) All is forgiven, ah-pek.

p.p.s: I am generally a happy person today cos after the movie, I went for shopping and a bought 2 pairs of shoes (a red heels and a gladiator sandals), a kilt-like bag, a necklace and a T-shirt for my brother that says, "Evacuate. I've farted" for less than RM100. Yay!!!
I swear if the shoe shop, called "Summit" accepts credit card, I would have bought more than 2 pairs!

Bond.. James Bond

2008-11-07T03:22:00.005+08:00

Quantum of Solace premiered today!!! *jumps around happily*
I find the Malay translation amusing, something, "Ketenangan di antara kesengsaraan".. hahaha

Though I'm not much of a Bond fan but I jumped on the bandwagon .. cos I read James Bond trivia in StarSpecial today WTH? *yay! more unnecessary stuff for the pea-brain of mine* or maybe it's because of Daniel Craig blue eyes *swoon* Definitely the second reason..

By the end of the movie, I was 3/4 blur cos I was lost at certain parts of the conversation. Sometimes the British accent is so incomprehensible and fast, other times, the censorship board thought it was fun cutting all the "18sx/18sg" scenes which happen to include relevant plot of the story? I dunno..?

AND to spice things up, imagine 15 minutes to the end of the movie, the screen went blank in the cinema.
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Ya. Tell me about it. If this is India, I'll understand cos they need to change to the second movie roller-thingamajig. But hello, MBO cineplex in Msia? We (12 of us) spend a good 5 minutes in the dark joking bout how they are streaming from the net, or changing to the second disc etc

When the movie finally came back, the characters were mute. So, we read the subtitles in the mean time. Oh wow, a Malay speaking James Bond. That must've been the coolest scene..

No point asking for refund.. maybe not me.. cos I was still trying to make sense about the movie. Damnz. I thought it was supposed to be entertaining, not mind-boggling.

Ends

Friends? Maybe Not.

2008-11-05T18:29:00.003+08:00

Tell me, how do you feel if you are in my position?

She sat behind of me in lecture class yesterday. She asked me whether I would like follow her to somewhere in her usual enthusiastic voice. I hesitated, she persuaded and I eventually agreed. We would go after class it seems.
As the class ended, it started to rain heavily. I walked towards her and her "gang", waiting for their next plan. They said they'll leave now and she walked towards one of the car, while someone shielded her with the umbrella. The rest of guys casually ran under the rain to their vehicle while I was STILL waiting for her to at least remember that I am supposed to go with her. I waited for 5 minutes, in the lecture hall, looking for her response if she has any. Nothing. SO, I save whatever stupid pride I have and leave the room from the other door where thankfully I saw another group of friends who are kind enough to give me a lift back to the hostel in their car.
After I finally reached my room, slightly drenched and slightly pissed, I checked my phone to see a missed call from her. I smsed her saying I'm not going cos it's raining *ya. laugh at the sad me* She then replied, " Why a?.. hmmm??" MY ASS la.

I was there when she needed someone to talk, to listen and to care.
I helped her even when it's not my problem.
I watched her back even when she didn't realise it.
I stood up for her when her best friend insulted her.
I waited for her when everyone else leaves.

.......I do not ask for anything in return cos friendship is not like that.

How can she conveniently forget her friend when she has what? a "better" in which I really mean , a more "happening" group of friends? Urrggh!
For Pete's sake, I would never do something like this to a friend..
It happened not once, not twice but several times.. and the worse part is, I always, regardless of what others say, give her the benefit of doubt.

I would let this pass, will not blogged bout it if she didnt do what she did just now.. Now I'm really pissed.

She got the nerves to asked me today in class why I didnt follow her yesterday? Apparently, she was waiting in the car for me. Hello? It was obviously a long wait, raining heavily and I already reached my hostel room when you noticed I wasn't there.. I swallowed it all up, turn to her and just smile cos I know it's not worth arguing for.

I know I should have confronted her, to avoid holding any grudges but I can foresee only 2 possible outcomes:

She'll apologise profusely, smile smile, manja manja but it will happen again cos she's like that.
She'll act blur and innocent as if she dont mean it, like she always do and all stupid guys will believe and I'll be the petty one
She'll totally ignore this incident

Seriously, I give up weii..
Of course, it does not mean our friendship is over. Just..
Is it hard to respect me as a friend? What the hell? I'm your spare-key friend is it?

The hair transformation

2008-10-10T01:38:00.006+08:00

This is a vanity post about my hair transformation for the past 6 months =) *la la la .. happy*

The red-purplish devil hair. I like this colour the most but it brings attention to my head. Hah.
*sorry if I scare you*

Red colour turned to orangy-brown. Trimmed the hair but remain long length.

2 months ago, succumbed to the "bob" trend but it was a pseudo bob. Shoulder length version.

One month ago, cut my hair again to purely "bob" hair cos my hair grew so fast that, it's showing very prominent black roots. Not seen here cos I dyed my hair to dark brown to cover the red-orange base and ugly roots.
i look like some French spy rite? *snort*

Spastic face after the above "cool" face, to prove that I am not cool la.

This picture is to prove that I have visible eyes ok! Not that I am hiding behind those sunglass.

Hmmm, kinda miss the long hair but to tie it up made me look like an auntie vs the short hair who makes my chubby face feels exposed. Ahaha
In the end, it's still the same me.
Behind the smiling mask hides a sad facade.

The end.

Bottle It Up

2008-09-29T02:04:00.007+08:00

"how are you?"

"i am many things. i am angry. i am sad. i am disappointed. i am frustrated. i am confused. i am doubtful. i am going craaaazyyyyyyyy!!!"

xxx

so much dramas have been going on lately i feel all drained out. left, right, up, down, inside, outside. i feel like a ticking bomb just waiting to explode.

ARRGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

Random~

2008-09-28T23:02:00.006+08:00

*edited*
The impatient me bought the pirated DVD of this movie soon after it was release only to regret cos the subtitles suck horribly!
Those people who subbed the movie literally translated the Japanese language word to word. argghh.. the bahasa melayu version was worse. Imagine watching Japanese movie starring Takeshi Kaneshiro with Indonesian subtitles.. funny wei..

Lim Shwu Tyng,
Jom go watch Accuracy of Death/ Sweet Rain!

Takeshi Kaneshiro is sOo hawt!

Btw, wishing you a belated happie birthday!

Thanks for being a no-good gossip buddy!
You know I love you rite?? Mwah!

My Temperament

2008-09-28T17:26:00.002+08:00

Did a Personality Test on Friday nite at cellgroup meeting..

My behaviour style is Peaceful Phlegmatic...

My Strengths

Funny: "Dry" humour ( inserts funny remarks in conversation without smiling or laughing at herself)
Good listener
Gives good advice, if asked
Dependable; can be trusted
A dependable and close friend
Efficient; does detailed work to perfection but needs time to do it
Has great sense of timing to do the right thing
Easily identifies with the feelings of others
Tends to find the most practical way to accomplish a task with the least amount of effort
Works well under pressure
Neat and well-organized in her work and dress
Enjoys family and home

After reading my supposedly strengths and agreeing most of it, I couldnt help but laughing at my supposedly weaknesses..

My Weaknesses

Slow-moving; sluggish *wth. am i supposed to move faster?*
Unmotivated which is usually called "LAZY"
* ahahahah! so true*
Wastes time * proven by blogging now instead of sleeping?*
Teases too much
Makes excuses for herself
Stubborn, especially if someone pushes of hurries her
Doesn't like to be advice
Indecisive; does not like to make final decisions *don't ask me to decide where to eat, i'll answer anything*
Often does not finish what she starts because there's not enough time allowed for her deliberate and slow ways
Prefers not to be with emotional people so will avoid controversy and tragedy *not true. i am surrounded by emotional people.. i can't help it*

Anyhow, I'm supposed to boost my strengths and change my weaknesses.. Along with the weaknesses, solutions are given to solve it..

My pattern name is Advisor/Counsellor/One who is merciful.

"Individuals who are Advisors exhibit warmth, sympathy and understanding in their approach to people. They possess a casual kind of poise in most social situations. Many people will come to them because Advisors are seen as good listeners. They typically do not attempt to force their ideas on others, and in a conflict are likely to yield or to be overly flexible. If the conflict is serious, they may withdraw to avoid further conflict rather than work at resolution. They tend to take criticism of their work as a personal affront. They can sometimes be overly tolerant and patient with non producers. Advisors prefer to deal with people on a personal, intimate basis in a low-pressure situation. Their managers should realize that Advisors tend to allow too much lead time on projects. They need personla attention and compliments for assignments that are well done. Their best work will be done when a public viewing or review is likely. They are instinctive team players and work best in an environment of acceptance and serenity."

The Institute of Motivational Living, Inc.

Some advisors in scriptures are Barnabas, Mary Magdalene, Elisha, Nicodemus and of course, Jesus Christ.. (:

There may be many Advisors around but I know we are all made differently with different purpose in God's eyes.

I'm glad to know, reinforce and change a bit of myself today.. and hope u enjoy reading bits of me!

2008-09-25T19:19:00.000+08:00

I am pathethic.
Sigh.

Sunset in Melaka

2008-09-02T00:32:00.003+08:00

This is the breathtaking sky that accompanied my family and I during our dinner by the sea at Portuguese Settlement, Malacca...

One don't have to travel afar to enjoy beautiful scenery if one is contented with what is present in one's midst hey?..

God's hand at work.. x)

Nah, we didnt eat those cockrooach-like *dont know the name* seafood.. hehe.. but the mussels were scrumptious. Freshly grilled and kinda cheap too, bout RM6 per plate of 6 mussels~

Buh-bye Sun, see ya tomorrow!
*happie to welcome the night.. hoho*

Quick note

2008-08-26T15:16:00.003+08:00

Exams is the worse.. esp if it's last minute digestion of wht had been forcefully inserted.....

hohoho

but the best part is... depriving onself from sleep to appreciate the true value of sleep... @_@

xxx

darn those chinese tea.. now i cant have a proper afternoon nap// .. laying wide awake in the comfort of my bed with my body completely relax but having my heart pounding like it's on steroids.. chilaka~

k la..
4 more days to the measly 2 weeks holiday.. "hooray!"
well, better than nothin...

when i'm bored

2008-08-01T23:10:00.003+08:00

yeah, so i suddenly felt really bored this afternoon. so bored i resorted to msg a friend to annoy him. hoho! :D

me: eh, you there? i need to ask you something.
friend: yea yea. haha. lucky u. about to go downstairs d. wat?
me: how are you?
friend: ...... omggggg

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA!
i knowwwww! god, why am i so funny wtf.

david cook is <3

2008-07-31T00:55:00.009+08:00

It's five minutes to one but guess what I have been doing.

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Watching David Cook's videos on youtube!!!!!! :D

I don't care what you think lah okay. He is just so damn amazing lah OMGGGGGG!

all i really need is you too, david love. <33333

*melts*

David, please marry MEEEE!!!!!!!

Le sigh.

conversation gone wrong

2008-07-10T22:58:00.005+08:00

It was a tiring day.
I was having a short conversation with a friend to take my mind off things when the conversation lead to this.

Friend: Okay, as long as you're happy.
Me: Eh, that sounded so familiar! Is it from a movie?
Friend: NOO!
Me: EHHH, I KNOWW! It's from Made of Honour! 'If you're happy, I'm happy.'
Friend: Are you from Pearl Harbour?
Me: Huh? NO!
Friend: Oh, cause I thought you're the bomb.

-______-"

why is my friend like that!!! ):

My very own Cornetto ad

2008-07-07T22:20:00.057+08:00

Hihi i iz back wtf.
Guess what happened earlier today!
If you get it right i give you present ok.
And by present i mean a pat on your back wtf.

Iya, nvm lah i'll tell you since i'm kind like that wtf.
Anyways, today i had the opportunity of feeling like i was in one of the cornetto ads i used to see on telly.

My friend and i had just finished eating dunch (lunch/ dinner cause it was 4 plus and it was too heavy for tea wtf) when we decided that we wanted to watch a movie.
We rushed to the cinema, queued, bought our tix and popcorn, and off we went.

As we step into the cinema, we were like, "OMG, they're still showing the ads so we're on time YAY!" only to realize it was empty. *insert eerie sountrack wtf*

Me: Eh, how come no one wan? Are we too early?
Friend: Omg, i don't think so lorh. The movie was supposed to start like 10 mins ago so it's quite unlikely lah.
Me: Oh crap! Does that mean that we're the only ones watching this movie?
Friend: Eh, i think so lah omg so scary. I'm starting to imagine stuff.
Me: Omg, shut up! Dahlah people scared have to say this kinda things to make things worse.

However, 15 mins through the movie..

Me: Eh, actually quite cool lah to be the only ones watching the movie!!
Friend: Yealah, how often do you get to be the only ones watching a movie in the cinema?
Me: Yeah! Reminds me of the cornetto ad. Eh, we should take picture lah. Damn cool lo.

So much for feeling scared.

-________-"

Anyways, the movie was great.
Watching a romantic movie sure has helped ease our fears. ;)
Although i have to admit there were times when i thought i heard noise behind me. :/

I've heard numerous rumours about cinemas being haunted, so obviously i started to panic.
I tried ignoring it the first few times, but as time passed, it started becoming more frequent, so I turned around to check only to see...

A LADY

WHO ACTUALLY WORKS AT THE CINEMA SITTING COMFORTABLY BEHIND US WITH HER LEGS UP ON THE SEAT %#$@&*!!!!!!

My dream

2008-07-06T01:17:00.003+08:00

Ever wonder how a dream is form?
Does someone out there decide who is to have sweet dreams or nightmare? But there's of course scientific explanation for everything?
It's been a long time since I last remember a very sweet dream.. A dream which I can remember, feel and be a part of it. So surreal.!

The night before Psychiatric end-posting at 9.30 am, on Friday morning, last week, I was supposed to study..

What to expect if one takes the exam lightly because one has not see the past years MCQs and others telling one that Psyche posting is easy?
Procrastination..

And what to expect if one is to study on the bed?
Procrastinate further

At 10.30 pm, I set my alarm clock to 5.30am..
Knowing that I will wake up at 6am or later.. only to snooze till 8am

I didnt feel worried, anxious or sense of impending doom that i might flunked the exam but I felt elated and happy!

Best dream in ages! hahaha

Which will remain a secret for ever!

End.

p.s: anticlimax-kan?
p.p.s: not related sexually in anyway.. in case u're wondering, pervs.
p.p.s: something i hope will come true someday.. if not, i can continue dream on.. HAH.

Not-a-teenage drama queen.. haha!

2008-07-05T22:49:00.003+08:00

Salute to the drama queen aka diva who wants to remain anonymous *though i think her style is quite obvious =)* OR she might be my alter ego... ?

She's more hardworking, more enthusiastic than I am in keeping the blog updated.. and heck, she's doing a good job at it *I'm so sure I'm gonna regret saying this cos I can already hear her agreeing, annoying laughter*..

My initial expression when I saw my own blog was shock cos I wasn't expecting it to be that colourful..
Now it's difficult for me to blog bout anything sad/emo .. only "happie r-a-i-n-b-o-wie stories" Hohoho.. Not.

While I still ponder on what to write for the future post, please pardon her retardedness and enjoy her self-conversing post mostly bout her diva-ness and leech-banging *not anticipating it at ALL*

I'll of course continue to write bout my life..! Tho not as colourfully portrayed but who says one cant be optimistic hey? Or maybe I'll just turn manic.. just to make things interesting..

Randomness.!

1. My ex-fluffy dog, Richie looks like a skewered roast lamb now after having his fur completely shaved, except the head la. He's so ugly that my dad refuse to take him out of the house for his daily walk. He's so ugly that the very sight of the dog makes me laugh and points at him saying, "Yer. Stupid ugly dog OR Yer, he looks uglier from the back view OR Yer, E.T dog!"

But

I still love him anyway for not understanding the derogatory remarks I made and for loving me unconditionally. =>

2. Today, someone asked me what's the difference between pacat and lintah? I'm suppose to know cos I'm leech/pacat and I'm supposedly lintah's cousin? I seriously dunno but I did googled it up *dont ask why* and interestingly, i found out that Lintah lives in water and Pacat lives on land (like me.. hohoh). So, please do not sms me *pointing to Huiwan* if a lintah sucks your blood while you're crossing a stream in the forest.. Not my fault k .. Click here to be expert in bloodsucking parasites

3. My fellow gTLiers are already planning a villa for old spinsters. Why la we are so sad? *shaking head ala Indian lady style*

4. I love durians. Mum bought a lot during this weekend specially for me. I remembered vividly my most embarrassing experience from eating durians is during form 5 when the glutton me ate 2 biji of durians before going for afternoon Add Maths tuition class with approximately 100 students. During the session where we supposed to answer Add Maths questions individually, I burped a few times. Though SILENT, but the ODOUR was LETHAL. hahahahahah The worse part was I denied vehemently and acted blur among my school friends. Hohohoh. I didnt dare open my mouth. I just shrugged my shoulders, pinched my nose and gave the disgusted face. HAHAHA k. so it's not thhhaaat embarrassing since no one noticed that i was the source.

5. I was serenaded by a Malay guy the other day. Although it's what a girl would wish for but not exactly what I have in mind. Especially since the guy is a psychiatric patient, standing behind the ward grills and thinks that I'm a Bollywood actress. Sial.

Was asking some male psychiatric patients some questions but couldn't get much out of them because they couldnt differentiate what's reality or delusions.. really sad seeing them like that.. especially when there's no treatment.. only stabilizing the condition..

k. enough for the day.
:)

2008-07-04T23:06:00.014+08:00

hye! iz me, ze anonymous bloggah. okay, that was reaaally annoying. i know, right? cause that's what leech does all the time.

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okay, i'm kidding.
that was lame. not like leech is not, but wellll, that's not the point. (it could be :D)

anyways, leech granted me the permission to update this blog on her behalf. why? cause she's lazy like that. how do i know, you ask? well, i should know better cause she's sitting next to me right now. reading other ppl's blog. seriously! she rather read someone else's blog than update her own's. -________-" yeah, I KNOW! haih why is my friend like that? ):

but it's okay i guess cause she doesn't even bother signing into msn to catch up with her friends, so really, it's not that bad. at least she's not ignoring you. but if you think you haven't seen her online for a really long time, then there could be possibilities that she has blocked you. not that i'm implying she did, but like i said, there are possibilities. *insert kan-cheong soundtrack wtf

iya, i'm kidding lah okay. you think she so hardworking merh? she doesn't even bother signing into msn. what makes you think she'd be hardworking enough to actually look for ur name, right click, block? i'm just bored so i'm trying to start up some kinda rumour or whatever instead of letting someone start it for once cause i'm cool like that wtf. i call myself drama queen for a reason okay. it doesn't help with the fact that her blog's been dead for a long time. may you rest in peace wtf. iya, actually it's cause she's ignoring me. nolah, actually i'm ignoring her cause i told her i needa update her blog, so she gotta like gimme some peace and time to like update it, ya' know? omg i should stop this already cause it's getting annoying.

okaylah bye.

ps ends abruptly cause i like it like that. what? tv dramas also like that what! when climax then to be continued wtf.
pps comment disabled cause i don't wanna let leech comment wtf.

[edit]

hye! i iz back . why? cuz i feel like it lah wtf. iya, nolah. i just wanna clarify that i'm not leech okay in case you ppl think she has some kinda identity crisis or something. you think she so funny merh wtf. okay lah. endz wtf.

Issues

2008-05-18T01:53:00.006+08:00

When all fails, it's comforting to know that, there's family supporting my every move, friends who accept me for who I am and God to depend on..

I know things could be MUCH better if I handled things properly but... no one was there to teach me.. how was I supposed to know...? What I have is my feelings..

All other things dont seem to matter...

What matters the most is happiness at hands rite?..

Only time will heal.. heal those grudges, wash away the what-ifs, and start things anew..

xxx

I had a great day with my family today. We drove to Batu Caves area to collect a check from Dad's client. Then dad drove us to a dam/lake at the area. It is a very beautiful place. Reminds me bout the Ooty trip. Too bad I didnt bring along my camera but we'll definitely drop by there the next time.

Then I had a enjoyable time with some of the gTLiers; Peks, Shwus and Huiwanz. As usual (like it's a ritual), we shamelessly camwhored at Starbucks Centro amidst the presence of toddlers, children, parents and student. hohohoh. Though Shwus might be "sarcastic" at times, Peks - blur- most of the time and Huiwan being quiet/secretive but I know they'll always be there for me.. as I will always for them.. =)
(the rest: we'll meet up someday le?)
I want to choose to trust people and not be skeptical about friends... especially friends for years.. but there's no point for me to hold on dearly if i do not see any efforts put in to maintain a friendship hey?..

All-in-all, my family plus the dog, and friends really made me contented today. They might not know how much is their impact on me but I really appreciate it.! XOXO
xxx

Btw, I'm so bored of my own blog... huhuh i'm not funny anymore...
To spice up my mundane life, I've joined the Latin dance class, with hope to acquired new dancing skills, flex and relax my stiff-as-kayu body and maybe, maybe, maybe loss some weight ler.. sigh!

I just wanna be the cheerful and loud me! Not an emo idiot! Arrgghhh!!

P.s: The post today is somehow inspired by the survivors of the earthquake and cyclone. They fight so hard for survival and soon for a living, and who am I to complain?
I am truly touched and felt really helpless.. I promise, that one day, I'll be the first few person to reach the victims of natural disaster and put my expertise to full use...

Hello!

2008-03-17T22:10:00.004+08:00

Back home, finally.

Leaving India with very mixed feelings.
People here often asked me, "Do you miss India?"
Duh. I stayed in Manipal, India for 2 and 1/2 years, moreover during my transition period from teen to a young adult.

Let me tell you what I experienced, learned or observed.
>> It really sucks when people are confined in a small town, they tend to be really busybody. There are certain people who create stories/gossips or give funny ideas just to watch people argue. I guess that's their form of entertainment in this small town. It's like they feed on other's miseries. They portrayed themselves as "friends" and worst part is I discovered it too late after trusted them. I'm not saying I'm a perfect friend but one thing I learned from years of friendships is keeping secrets when told or at least have common sense on what should be said or not.

>> Friends who attached to you for benefits. Parasite (not associated with leech). Friends with benefit is acceptable or rather, simbiosis but not to the extent of leaving a friend to go to another just for farts. I treated each friend sincerely without asking for anything in return. For fart's sake, at least considered my feelings. This is my blog. I'll admit if I'm jealous but I'm not. It's just hurtful to see people's true colours the hard way and again, after months of close friendships. I chose not to trust others when I was told bout it. I gave them benefit of doubt but again was proven wrong. My only regret is I never confront them but I chose to let it passed. So, there'll be always a
... grudge now.

Didn't wanna sound so dramatic after a period of absence but this topic just comes to my mind.. =P

Guess it has been bothering me hey.. but all will be fine now.. hopefully with the distance, busy timetable.. then I'll see who are the friends worth keeping

Friendships are 2 ways.. I do my part. And I expect you to do your part.. unless u disagree with me.. then good riddance! =)

Will blog bout my holiday in Cochin, Kerala soon. Made me miss India even more. huhuh

p.s: Camera died on me during the 2nd day of holiday. So crappy! And I got it fixed for RM226!! Arggh!!

Post-Goa!

2008-01-31T14:32:00.001+08:00

Goa holiday was a blast! Took loads of pictures! Had tons of fun! Ate good food! Dine at the best place! Shop till I literally dropped!

This trip had 4 guys and 4 girls. We girls are really shopping freaks. Despite sleeping less than 3 hours the previous nite on the train, we spent the entire day out. 2 guys were "strong" enough to keep up with our energy whereas the other 2 gave up half way and went back to the hotel to sleep.

Lady luck or rather, God was blessing us tremendously. We initially booked online at a hotel called, Villa Fatima but the rooms were just so-so. Not that I mind since we only need a place to put our bags and shower. hehe But the hotel admin did not have enough room for 8 of us. So they put us up at their new apartment which was yet to be inaugurated. We stayed there for a real bargain. Only Rs500 (approx RM45) for 2 nites for the entire place.. Picture a double storey bungalow in bright red colour *photo below la .. no need to crack ur head* On top of that, the person in charge, a Catholic Father, allowed us to checked out 2 hours later, allowed us to keep our bags at another empty room and provided us transportation to the train station (2 hours away) in a brand new Toyota Innova for only Rs1000 (approx RM95). Made our holiday more enjoyable. =)

Top row: Poser guys looking into a distance, group photo with self timer, random photos
Bottom row: Mi casa es su casa, group camwhore, group photo during teatime, transportation around: scooter! Me higher class lo.. i rode a bike! *pillion rider only la*

Top row: Supposedly diva-ish pose! But I find myself very irritating.. h-a-h-a and group photo, again with timer. hehe
Bottom row: Photo of our kakis! and the view of Anjuna beach.

Proceeded to Vagator Beach to watch the sunset but..
before that, we occupied ourselves with a "few" shots..

Glorious food!

Top row:

Brunch at Britos- epitome of gluttony. We ordered breakfast AND lunch together.
Death by Chocolate at Fiesta. The cake looks firm but when eaten, it's so moist and oozing out chocolate sauce.
Best tiramisu I've tried ever. In the past, I only ate tiramisu cake till I finally taste only the tiramisu at J&A's Little Italy. It cost a bomb though. A glass like that cost RM35++.

Bottom row:

Me and my wine *so proper rite? haha no shots. no hard liqour*
Britos breakfast as above. 7 slices of cakes: Alphine Chocolate Mousse, 3 Blueberry cheese cakes, ChocoWalnut cake, Chocolate cake and Tiramisu.
Fiesta's menu
Kent and Me at Lila's cafe. Operated by a robust German couple. Their breakfast was really good! Croissants, cheesecakes, strawberry tart, orange juices were really fresh. I felt more in Europe than India.!

You may skip these photos below , unless you really like me! HAHAHA

Pardon moi for the camwhore-ness... Too bad you still have to endure my selfshiokness =)

Clockwise: Admiring the colour of my hair *coughcough*, Me (muka spastic) with new earrings and Shydee's shades from Amsterdam, Me in my new shades ( I bought 2 new ones), At the beach, With my new tattoo (so that I can take pictures by posing like that) and last picture,was at one of the shacks by the beach, after clubbing, wearing someone's leather jacket cos it was freaking cold, drank wine till 4 or 5 am, only to wake up bout 10am next day to go.. shopping again. Woohoo~!

Thank goodness these bunch of holiday-goers also enjoyed taking self-portrait as much as I do. Heheh
Chinese-guy-cool-wannabe = Lester, Malay-guy-poser-giler = Shydee
Missing guys are Kent, China ah pek and Sashi-indian-tai-kor

Girls doing what they do best. Hohoho. What else? Pose la.. *there're more photos.. imagine 4 cameras, simultaneously.. ahah*

At a very beautiful al-fresco restaurant called Fiesta... The restaurant is built like an old Haveli with a bit of Portuguese touch. Every nook and corner was decorated differently with its own unique furniture, creating its own special ambience. Our corner was decorated with red lamps, triangle shaped glass table and seats made out of old sampans with plenty of soft, different shades of red cushions. The food tasted like Japanese food with Western name but still heavenly especially the dessert, chocolate cake, aptly name "Death by chocolate".

L-R: Intan the comel molek, Alicia the princess snow white, Amanda the retarded one and Ranmeet the sexy one!

I know I kept mentioning the word: shopping, as though I bought tons of stuff but I only bought 2 shades (a black and a red), 3 pairs of flip-flops, 2 dress, 1 top, 1 ali baba , belts (2 leather, 2 handmade artcraft), 2 bags (one sequin, one satin), 3 lady boxers, 2 pairs of earrings (expected more) and a really beautiful pink saree...

Kla. Will update more soon.
Tata!

P.s: Best part of the holiday is I didnt put on weight. haha! Weighed today at the clinic.

Side note: Will be back home (Msia) permanently soon! March 8th is my flight to Singapore =)

Off I Go-Ah!

2008-01-26T01:07:00.000+08:00

*music*
Cos I'm leaving on the the night train....
Dunno when I'll be back again *actually, will be back on Monday*

Off to Goa ... yippee! First holiday of the year! *Click HERE for previous Goa experience*

Sun, sea, beach, food, clubbing, shopping!!!

Kbye x)

p.s: Me packed me bag as if me gonna stay there for a week. Padahal only 3 days. H-A-H-A

Random

2008-01-17T03:16:00.000+08:00

I got a shocked when I found out that I've been blogging since 10th September,2004..

4 freaking years.. ok la... maybe 3 years +

Since college days!

I can't believe it either..

4 years of my nonsense online..

Whoopie!

2008-01-10T03:45:00.000+08:00

First rant of the year!

!@#$%^&*@#$%%^!!!!!

Just because YOU think you're "loud" and "outspoken does not give u farks to control others or pull others to stoop to your level! Toot!

I hate it when you want people to go your way and the way you show ur irritated face. What are you? Saddam's inspired sister?!

Your self confidence really sickens me cos u are not as likable as you think you are..

Pleasures me so much NOT to see you. Thought of you makes me dyspnoeic and nausea..

Please grow up, fart-face.!

Sigh. I can't believe I'm that affected...

Totally wrong song for the situation. Listening to : Dancing in the Moonlight by Toploader! WAHAHAHA

After typing all out, I suddenly thought of Luke 6:27 - Love your enemies.

...

how? ...

Help me, Lord ...

=)

Food

2008-01-06T02:26:00.000+08:00

Our posting group, Batch C had a potluck dinner today, just because.

Since I was busy with Interbatch competition the whole afternoon (MadAds: we had to promote a imaginary product, like a TV advertisement, in the wackiest way i.e umbrella for fishing, and the product is only given 1 hour prior to the competition and StreetPlay: short skit on War and Peace but the topic is given 1 day beforehand), which we won first and second place respectively =) with last minute preparations! So, I had no time to cook anything but I ta-pau-ed Garlic Fried Squid as my contribution.. X)

Others prepared home-cooked food like Bak Kut Teh, Char Siew, Red Bean soup, Roast Chicken, Emperor Chicken, Herbal Egg, Fried Chili Ikan bilis, Lasagne BUT i just have to finished HALF POT of Tomyam soup. I managed to squeeze in a bit of each food, as if I have 4 stomachs. The gluttony. I cant help it cos all the food tasted so nice. Really typical Malaysian food.

Kinda regret it now cos I had CurryChicken Noodles for lunch.

I can feel my stomach churning.. Huhuh.. there goes my sleep tonight... T.T

Eppie New Yr!

2007-12-31T23:57:00.000+08:00

Big HellOo to 2-0-0-8!

There was no holiday during New Year (cos our college had too many holidays) but was off for new year eve.. Currently posted at OBG & Pediatrics in Karkala, a charitable hospital at the outskirts of Manipal, 45 minutes bus-ride away. Details later. =)

2007 has been a bitter sweet year~

Never thought Ive learned so much in a year...

My perspective of others have changed (i know who to trust and who NOT to suck up to), learned what is love; its beauty and hypocrisy, spiritually grew stronger but working hard on the emotional stability, enjoyed simplest things like extra 5 minutes of sleep or conversing in weird sign language with patients and best of all, had tons of fun!

*non specific order*

2007 was the year I celebrated my 21st Bday..

The year I accepted Christ
The year I nearly lost my eyesight due to Pseudomonas infection.
The year I visited Taj Mahal and mingled among the locals in North India for 28 days with 8 other wackos without parental guidance *hehe*

The year I have my own dog
The year I know how a person can change because of "love" into a baldless, hairless CHICKEN.. *maybe I'm just bitter .. hahaha*
The year I attended 3 balls (2 College Annual nites and a Supremo Ball)
The year I joined dance events ( Church christmas dance, Interbatch Contemporary dance, Annual Nite Fan Dance) when I thought a kayu like me can never dance...

Interbatch Contemporary Dance. Managed to get 2nd placing though the result is highly disputable. We should have won! By the way, medical school is not all bout books no? =)

The year I sang like my life depends on it (Christmas carol, christmas choir)

Bout 30 of us from different batches, travelled in an entourage of autorickshaws, motorbikes and scooters, painted the town RED, spread Christmas cheer to 7 lecturers and their family.

The year I had my very first Christmas celebration at home with my housemates and friends (specifically, entire batch & refreshers were invited, bout 100+/- turned up)..

The hosts of the night, who made the party a success. Of course with God's presence too.. ^-^

Mr Skull tak layan me.. His twin brother is beneath the Christmas tree.

The year I played sports like I'm high on Energizer battery (Basketball representing college team, basketball interbatch league games, Volleyball representing college and interbatch)

The girls who fought with sweat and tears and won 5 out of 5 league games but lost in the finals. Nevertheless, we won without coaches (no guys help) and proved our skeptics wrong. Thought that we are the underdogs hey? You can eat my excrement.!

The year I got real high on shots, said and do random stuff.. haha
The year I changed from being a person who aimed to pass my exams to one who aim to get distinction

*the later part of the year, after September was more interesting due to less stress/studies and my recent memories work better*

The year I love my family more and more

Orang utans not included in the family

The year I appreciate my true friends.. I truly understand what it means to have real friends than loads of fakes asshOles =). I regret that some friendships are no longer the same nor is it any better. Only superficial and fake. It aches my heart but I will try my very best to do my part. Will you?

The year my mum undergo hysterectomy (due to CIN grade3 - precancerous condition) which aches my heart so much cos I cant be there with her and the family. I can only pray that God is with them..

The year I experienced my first clinic postings. Patients, expecting mothers and their family members are so understanding and helpful. I've never come across (so far) any rude or uncooperative ones. Although they are poor/low income family (they cant even afford their medical fees or partial subsidies are given), but they are so generous with their smiles. They find it amusing to see us (students) communicating in broken Kannada (local dialect), hence tried their very best to cooperate with us and never once look down on us trainee doctors. I doubt that we'll receive the same treatment back in Malaysia. Without patients like these, how do aspiring doctors train? On dummy hey?

Truthfully, I'm very grateful for studying in India. This place really educate me a lot on terms of culture, shopping ( buying cloth for punjabi suits, bindi, sarees, earrings.. bringing the word shopping to a different level) and appreciating life ( cliche but true). Whilst we students live life quite comfortably (lecture halls, library, food court, buses -fully air-conditioned- & own maid, cook, vehicle, newly built apartments), majority of the low income local Indians are contemplated with their lives. They know without education, their future is bleak (labourer? construction worker?) but without money, education is also impossible. The irony. To comfort myself, I always think that at least, my expenditure here goes to the locals .. hahah =D Finally, all I can say is India is a beautiful place. Really.

Proof?

Magnificient Taj. When I was there, it has began to change colour from pearly marble white to slight brownish. Visit it.. fast.

Whoa! Pinnacle of the whole trip!

Mahatma Gandhi's House/Museum

Highlands: Manali
We ate the best Tibetan food here! At a restaurant name Chopsticks! and also the best chocolate cake with hot choco fudge and fresh grilled trout at a restaurant which name I cant recall.. hee~
Indian government are really kind to the Tibetans who were made refugees from their own country by China. China has SERIOUS horrible human rights issue. Read more here, here and here.The Indian government allows the Tibetans to live in the hill and Manali, Darjeeling & Dharamsala are few of these places. Tibetans identity and civilisation are facing extinction.

Darjeeling
Home of famous Darjeeling tea? Saw the fourth highest peak in the world.

Amritsar: Pakistan-India border.
Changing of guards. Indians wear their best dresses and suits to this place and & dances to all the patriotic songs and Pakistanis will counter with their own songs but pale in comparison in the sense of dressings (mostly, male Pakistanis in white or black clothing)

Amritsar: Golden Temple
Sikhs' Holy Place. We have small kids coming up to us, to shake hands and greet us. Hahah =>

Jaisalmer : Rajasthan's desert
We travelled by camel for one hour plus to the desert from the fort. We slept in the desert at night without tent. Only mattresses and blankets with the dark sky filled with gazillion stars above as our ceiling. A very pretty sight indeed!

Yellow Fort.

One of the many forts in Rajasthan. There were Blue Fort (Jodhpur) and Pink Fort (Jaipur). Been there too. Red Fort is in the capital city, New Delhi (Was there but closed on Monday. Shhesh!)

Udaipur (White Fort) : Rajasthan

View from the Maharajah's Monsoon Palace. We rent
scooters and travelled around that area. One of the memorable part of my trip cos of the picturesque landscapes and very relaxing excursion. Or maybe cos I rode the scooter downhill, without braking!?

I think I'm done with 2007. I have my share of regrets and resentments but only lessons will be learned from it! No New Year resolutions, only decisions to be made!

This year will be special.. cos I ushered the new year with God =) Bring on all the challenges!

I've already open a 2008 photo folder! WhoopeE~

Kbye. Hungry!