She sat behind of me in lecture class yesterday. She asked me whether I would like follow her to somewhere in her usual enthusiastic voice. I hesitated, she persuaded and I eventually agreed. We would go after class it seems.
As the class ended, it started to rain heavily. I walked towards her and her "gang", waiting for their next plan. They said they'll leave now and she walked towards one of the car, while someone shielded her with the umbrella. The rest of guys casually ran under the rain to their vehicle while I was STILL waiting for her to at least remember that I am supposed to go with her. I waited for 5 minutes, in the lecture hall, looking for her response if she has any. Nothing. SO, I save whatever stupid pride I have and leave the room from the other door where thankfully I saw another group of friends who are kind enough to give me a lift back to the hostel in their car.
After I finally reached my room, slightly drenched and slightly pissed, I checked my phone to see a missed call from her. I smsed her saying I'm not going cos it's raining *ya. laugh at the sad me* She then replied, " Why a?.. hmmm??" MY ASS la.
I was there when she needed someone to talk, to listen and to care.
I helped her even when it's not my problem.
I watched her back even when she didn't realise it.
I stood up for her when her best friend insulted her.
I waited for her when everyone else leaves.
.......I do not ask for anything in return cos friendship is not like that.
How can she conveniently forget her friend when she has what? a "better" in which I really mean , a more "happening" group of friends? Urrggh!
For Pete's sake, I would never do something like this to a friend..
It happened not once, not twice but several times.. and the worse part is, I always, regardless of what others say, give her the benefit of doubt.
I would let this pass, will not blogged bout it if she didnt do what she did just now.. Now I'm really pissed.
She got the nerves to asked me today in class why I didnt follow her yesterday? Apparently, she was waiting in the car for me. Hello? It was obviously a long wait, raining heavily and I already reached my hostel room when you noticed I wasn't there.. I swallowed it all up, turn to her and just smile cos I know it's not worth arguing for.
I know I should have confronted her, to avoid holding any grudges but I can foresee only 2 possible outcomes:
- She'll apologise profusely, smile smile, manja manja but it will happen again cos she's like that.
- She'll act blur and innocent as if she dont mean it, like she always do and all stupid guys will believe and I'll be the petty one
- She'll totally ignore this incident
Of course, it does not mean our friendship is over. Just..
Is it hard to respect me as a friend? What the hell? I'm your spare-key friend is it?
8 comments:
Whoa drama ... so interesting! better than gossip girl wehh. just what i need for a study break.
haha. ok humour aside.
life's like that. we find that some ppl regard us as friends and some don't. friendship is recipocral, no matter what happens it shouldnt be one sided. at least that's what i think la. unless ure her mother, then its unconditional love.
IMHO, forget the friendship. if uve put so much energy and be hurt in the end, why continue? let her come to her senses one day, when she realised that "eh leech is no more in my life" IF she's sensitive enough la. but judging from what i read....hrm mayb not.
my 50cents worth. sorry la, i wrote so long. stress currently, so trying to act smart here. hugs! hang in there
..mother's love? hahahah u always see the funny side of an issue.. =)
it's so hard to confide in others cos i dunno whether i'm overreactin or it's normal.. hehe
in the end, i'm glad gTLiers doesnt giv me so much heartache.. hehe *points at cuckoo cheryl*
nways, thanks for your thoughts~ hugs!
I can relate! It happened to me so many times and I even whined in my blog before (some of them reads my blog). Its not like we're gonna end the friendship or what like you said, but yeah hoping for a change?
Let's wait patiently. I believe the day will come and they'll realise =)
who sat behind u la? u can tell me
mun k: thanks mun-mun for ur words.. =) but patience it's somethin i'm lacking .. hehe
anon: i dont have frens by the name of anonymous.. =P can't tell u.
manda.... don't like that...
u can keep my spare key also
yerrrr....
so mean...
*sayang leech*
*feed blood*
but cannot give edward!
hahah su kia.. u r so cute!
thanks thanks
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