So long no see??>>

AHHH! ...
it's good to blog again.. after one month plus...!... time to reenergise the brain and reactivate the fingers... *tipppity-tappity-tip-tap-toh. I better start blogging again before my blog is declared defunct, I am declared 'dead' and my computer is declared the home of spiders and weird creatures.

Many thing has happened during the one month plus, which include chinese new year and valnetine's day plus my close friend, yattuang's birthday. i just want to let my friends know that those 3 events are the best thing happened so far for the yr 2005! Hopefully we can enjoy more wacky journeys ahead as a gang!

As some of you know, I am currently working while applying for universities. Such a huge disappointment cos I've got offers for biomedical sciences from U of Liverpool, U of Birmingham, Uni of Wellington and waiting result from Southampton for medicine. Let's just not mention the rejection part. Can't help it lerh.. x)......... My first rejection came from Manipal Uni in India. Blady hell. I got rejected just because I did not take Physics for my pre-u and the most upsetting part is the minimum entry requirement is 65%! ArrgghhHHH!!... This is the first time I got rejected for something. I mean, the irritating " Thank you for applying to study medicine in Manipal...bla bla bla...th eentyr requirement is 65% for OSSD but I am sorry for not being able to offer you a place because Physics is a required subject ..bla bla bla.. We wish you all the best bla bla bla" Loosely translated is PFO. PLEASE FUCK OFF. Ok. I'm just finding for someone to blame so those people in India r to blame!!! I have to admit that it's very very very disappointing and horrible. I didn't want to tell anyone cos I was so ashamed of myself. Malu lerh. I am more afraid of disappointing my parents than myself. Sometimes I feel they put too much pressure on me and the hardest part is they're doing it for 'my' own good. After loads of crying(the only way to voice out my frustration & sadness), sleeping and talking to God, I just hope for the best and keep thinking that if God shuts a door, I am very sure he has other plans for me (:
...............But all is not lost cos I can still apply to study in Manipal if I do twinning in Melaka BUT * I hate buts.. HATEHATEHATE* the results will only be out in August r July. Can't they work faster??!! Can't they process quicker? Can't they be more efficient?? SheeSh!!!
Oh tht's not the only rejection. Then came Uni of Leeds and Uni of Glasglow. Well, I expected it. I was way past the deadline for medicine and sorry to say, my results are not that PERFECT. Then the holiest of the hollier, National Uni of Singapore also rejected me. At least Uni of Leeds and Uni of Glasglow took the time to send official letters of rejection to me *dont really like the sound of 'official' and 'rejection'*, I have to check the outcome from NUS website. Just two words. Admission Denied. What the hell. No reasons at all but at least NUS have this appeal period starting in JUNE??!! Still so long. This is what they call efficient karh??!! ...................................
I am starting to feel numb to the word 'reject' and 'denied'. They*dunno who larh* say "rejection leads to hope" or "rejection makes a person work harder" .. something like that... but eh.. too much of rejection is no good k. Luckily I am numb to it. So, kinda ok with it. Heck, I htink I'm prepare for my love life.

ME:"Eh i like you. Do you like me?"
Guy:" Denied."

Me: Can you give me a chance?
Guy: Reject

La la la lla.. numb d.. so no feelings... HEhee.hehe.. of course i dont do tht. I will never tell the person i like my true feelings. KInda stupid but thts just me. I rather have this dream than facing it in the real world.

ok ok.. back to my point. I was saying.. oh ya.. So yah. Got rejected from NUS too.. I want to study medicine but the chances are quite.. nope nope.. very slim... so Biomed.. Here i come. I went to the UK Education fair yesterday to confirm my status in the universities that I've applied. 2 out of 3 councillors from the Universities discouraged me from taking medicine. They say, "the real person who contributes to the health sector is medical scientists and biomedical scientists will change the root of all medicine especially since we're experimenting, exploring and designing new things each day. " I particularly like what the councillor from Uni of Southampton, Mr. Eric said. He told me that I'm a good student and I can make it. Dont worry. Just keep my view open and not be disappointed bcos I didn't get what I want. Probably he say the same thing to every student he meet but somehow I feel his words are very comforting and reassuring that it's gonna be okay *I see halo on his head.....* He also mentioned tht he dislikes doctors cos he thinks tht they're a bunch of arrogant brats. It was nice chatting with him. Just picture a short, big tummy man with a cheerful face .. not l santa claus .. he's just nice to chat with. Therefore, after much rejection, I'm still thankful tht at least i'm offered places for biomedical science.

Aprt from tht,

I can't wait for my trip to Redang Island with my colleagues! People who i've known for only 2 months?? hehEHee. THey're nice people but the truth is....even my mum knows why... I'm just going for the place.. akakKAKA.. wicked me.. hey.. i really wanna go with my close friends sicne we've never been on an outing like this.. but most of them are committed to something else... I still have time and earning my own money... so ... I am really excited!!!!!!! WooOHoOo!!!!

Till the next time. Hopefully soon.

Did i mentioned tht I'm stuck using the super slow-mo 28.8 kbps tmnet cos those ppl in streamyx are f*ucking stupid?.. Oh i just did. The feeling is like being demoted from driving a sports car to riding a bullock cart. Chilaka olang streamyx. Chilaka lembu.