you know what?

It's so hard telling people this. Harder to make them understand.

Sometimes when I smile, I am actually saving whatever dignity I have..

Why are people so judgmental and critical towards me? ... are really beyond my understanding..
Do you really know me, to even pass me those comments? What rights do you have for making me a joke for your own sadistic purpose? How dare you pass comments without thinking of my feelings?

There's difference between friendly jokes and pull-you-down-to-make-me-happy kind of jokes.

Is it because I am too nice, too soft, easily bullied or I have the tidak-apa-attitude?

In those situations, what am I supposed to do when my feelings are compromised? Be it publicly humiliated or privately confronted.
...Laugh it off, as usual and havin the cycles repeat?
...Confront, saying, "I dont like it", but afraid of sounding too harsh
... or easiest way, act blur and ignore those comments.

I know the comments are true. but whatever reason, you have no rights in making me feel this way.
Partially my fault for not standing up for myself. Sigh.
But like I said, if the comments are true, how do one defend oneself?
Double sigh.
It's personal attack k.. huhuh. and I am hurt.





p.s: jus to be fair, I know I make fun of others also but my jokes are in general. Never personal attack. and of course I know the other person well enough to make fun of.
p.p.s: think of happy thoughts. happie thots. :)
p.p.p.s: feels better now. don need sympathy. just venting out. mwah!