Rant

I wanted to let it all out.
The thoughts are killing me.
So, I decided to signed into FB, to rant out my thoughts.
Instead, I am greeted with so many happy shoutouts *i am happy that they are confident that they'll pass* and people who are already posting up the cases that are out today. But seriously, is it necessary? We went through fair and square ok?

I guess life IS unfair.

... I immediately exed the page off, and ended up here.

First and foremost, while we were quarantined in the room, awaiting our turns for long cases, some jackasses or smart alecks decided to SPECULATE or DECODE the allocated numbers that we had. Initially, I was ignoring them, got so pissed when they expected everyone (20 +) in the room to take part in their little session because their "brains" were satured and they can't study. To the point where they were so confident, I was shaken too. Scared to my core cos apparently I am supposed to get Paedatrics case. This particular "her" had the guts to walk around, happily proclaiming that she's glad that she managed to get O & G cases because it was either my allocated number or hers, will get either Ped 0r O&G and she have to let everyone know what's on her freaking mind. I am pissed. Cos we all are there for our exams, not to hear you freaking whine. Best part is others actually entertain her. Anyways, so, like I said, I got influenced and studied on Pediatrics for the last one hour and when the invigilator came to get me, he told me my case is an O & G case. Well, not that I am complaining at that moment cos I was aiming for O&G case.

Saying this, another friend was also expecting an ortho case cos of their conclusion but she had Peds case which was equally tough as mine. ):

Then hell began. As the invigilator was leading me to obstetrics ward, the corresponding medical officer said the fourth case is at the gynaecology ward. I was thinking, " i hope it's fibriods or ovarian cyst". Sigh. I guess it's just not my day. My patient has a freaking long history of carcinoma of cervix, had TAH BSO done last year, presented with ascites, had radiotherapy + chemotherapy done and left lower limb swelling. To her credit, my patient was cooperative * i was thinking after the exam, the person who wanted badly to get an o&g case should have this case cos this patient only speaks in MANDARIN* but she has shortness of breath, abdomen discomfort and forgotten details about her own condition. I had to clerk a freaking long history with only 15 minutes for examination of the abdomen and just my luck, when the examiners came, they were Dr. Sameera and Dr. Yang (surgical consultant). I knew I was dead.

He freaking expected me to examine the left lower limb swelling as a proper examination plus I had to do abdomen examination proper and other systems as well, since she presented with ascites.

He also asked a whole bunch of surgical questions and I didnt have time to answer any O&G questions. Not that I know also, cos wasnt expecting ca cervix.


Now I really know why people created the word, "F*CK". It's for such situations..

Sighhh..


Stress kao kao.