Dear, me.

Twice, tears were shed for the same reason.

It has been a long time since I last cried.. that particular morning, I cried when I saw the FB status.. I cried on the way to work.. I cried on the phone, talking and seeking advice from my confidante... at work *gasp*

Who would have know that at the age of 24, I would actually cried for a friendship issue?!

I assured myself countless times that I am important and irreplaceable.. but the reality is.. nothing lasts forever.. The truth is I am hurt that I AM replaceable.

Ms. Confidante told me to give space and time since everyone will go thorough this phase of meeting new friends, finding new excitement and better friends.

It makes full sense and I totally accept the fact, cos if I'm in the opposite shoes, I would probably act the same.

What hurts though is being treated invisible and being left tailing behind..

If it's meant for me to be alone, then so be it. Alone is not a bad thing. At least I am the centre of my own world, not the back up person. It's just hard to accept. I am big enough to adapt.

Foolish me had been so dependent on a single person, that I forget to think way beyond the "what-ifs".

And here comes the wake up call.. it may not be obvious but it's there.. the in-betweens.

Foolish me trying so hard to make things work but it doesn't fall to place.

A BIGGER foolish me to be so bitter when my friend is probably at the happiest period and I should be glad and unselfish.

Foolish me wish from the bottom of my heart, the best in life for my friend..who has been the dearest to me, totally irreplaceable.

Foolish me just wanna find a place to release this sorrow and I believe my happiness is somewhere out there..

Hence, the second time of shedding tears.

The tears of realization of what have become of us.

Life is a constant learning process and I am learning now to take things slowly..

We do need space for personal development and be seen as an individual eventually :D