Heavy hearted

"Sometimes you don't get closure. You just move on."

On a certain slow day and BAM!, sentences like this rings true.

I'm thankful for many things but so far 2016 doesn't look too good. Or it could be the PMS talking. *stupid reason but whatever* 😂

It's already February and i hate having uncertainties with plans half hanging. I detest indecisiveness. I want to commit so much but there are so many factors in the decisions I'm making. Ya I know it sounds vague but like I said, this blog is a outlet to vent. Sometimes it's hard explaining things even to the closest friend. The response can be lukewarm and not everyone gets my worries  😥

Another reason for being emo could be the age factor. The dreaded big 3-0 this year. It's not the number but more of what have I accomplished in these years? 😱😱😱 What I can be proud of? Fuh. Will leave this for another day. I vaguely remember at the age of 21 when life seems carefree, 30 seems so far away. So many things to do, long time more till then and *snap* there goes 3 decades.

Need to sort my shit out *not literally* Im trying to add positivity in my life. Just get out and do things that make me happy. And not wait!  I've missed so many opportunities just by waiting. Argh. 😡 Actually I know what I'm doing now is short term happiness. My worries are my long term plans. But I know there has to be a balance or else I'm going to be so stressed out. I also realised from observing behaviour of my closer friends, for one is, being persistent for one's needs. I'm the kind who sadly accepts my bad luck once faced with an obstacle but my friend will argue with absolute positivity. Not the angry kind. I really need to take the 10 secs rule before making decisions. 😤😤😤

Crossing finger for at least one successful plan for this year.

I wanna travel more, love fiercely, live happily!